[60-CHALLENGE] THE SIXTY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Reporting in; on day 6 now, still doing fine.

 

Day 25 complete!

 

Day 3/60 is done.

 

4/60

 

14/60

 

24/60. I noticed last night as I was about to fall asleep that I hadn't actually thought about watching porn as I prepared for bed. That is a very encouraging sign.

 

Day 1

 

Day 38. Had a few transient PMO thoughts last nite and was like "Nope, nope nope."

 

5 of 60 in 2019!!!!

 

Day 56 complete!

 

1/60
one step closer

 

Day 00/90 Second try!

 

15/30

 

25/60. Wow...it's really amazing to be this far. I relapsed so many times in the past. Finally it is working.

 

Hi, people. I'm on day 7 now. I feel my sexual thoughts and fantasies are at their max now. Trying to ignore them the best I can but my brain sometimes does it's own thing. No urges though. Luckily for me fantasies does not necessary translate into urges to masturbate or watch porn. Which is weird when I think about it but hey, I take it!

 

Day 4/60 is done.

 

54/60 - 10% left

 

42/60... 72 days no PMO... Obsession towards porn have considerably reduced. But What I struggling with now is after effects of porn, I am in deep depression. I a struggling a lot to get out of this. But I fighting as much as I can. I reading books about mental health and cognitive therapy. I know it will take time...
These days I am reading more about reading articles about gender and feminism. I think it will be really helpful for people who are trying to overcome porn addiction. It will help you to understand that why this world is so obsessed with porn and objectifying women. Reading such articles help us to understand how this profit driven society is misusing human sexual desire. How that capitalist attitude is disturbing mental health of generations in the age of internet and other technological advancements. Below I have shared an article about these topics, I hope it will be helpful to you guys:
“In 2018 Porn Is An Industry: And It’s Not Sex That’s Being Sold, It’s Abuse” by Tom Farr https://medium.com/p/f1bfefdda520

 

six

 

Strange how the universe works @Force Majeure. This week has had some incredible bursts of uncanny, timely inspirations that you wonder if someone is looking for you out there. Your thoughts above would be included (Have not explored the other threads provided yet}.

What you write above I accept for sure. That is the road ahead for me will take some de-coupling of what have been the instinctive response. Changing the trigger for that instinct to choose a positive, productive, healthy, mindful response is taking work.

This week I had the most significant intense to slide backward. The strongest it's been since starting this journey at the end of October. All told my brain spent 72 hours trying to justify falling back. Seeing it only as a small misstep given the size of the accomplishment so far. The desire for PMO occupied my thoughts nearly all the waking time robbing me of time and much more. I'm glad and actually somewhat proud that I chose not to give in. The thought of defeating what I've set out today. At this point with the 90 day milestone it just could carry any weight to have the euphoria of the PMO peak and the what I knew would be the feelings afterwards. I just couldn't take that. Yet man o' man was clawing at every neuron to open the door. It's still deep within me and will rise again I'm sure.

I went to bed pleased with how my brain suddenly shifted back into clarity. And waking in the morning without shame and defeat was a trigger to energize my day. I pulled back on the various pieces of inspiration from the week - writings, videos. Some amazing pieces from the Panic Button - love that thing. One thing I realized during the day was I had not rid my self of what was lying around in temptation. I do cleanses to detoxify my body but I hadn't done a cleanse to detoxify my PMO addiction/distraction. So I went everywhere on my hard drives and online links and removed. That meant going to the sites but I had no desire to explore them. I want to feel like I'd made another step that I'd never done before. Another level, feeling of clarity.

It's clear this is merely an episode among more I'm sure as I walk this path. Your words of wisdom are gratefully and reverently received.