Day 34. I may relapse tomorrow. DON'T RELAPSE TOMORROW. Preventing relapse by going into the office to work on a Sunday morning is NOT a good solution. Only relapse is worse. Consider a worship service. Could even be non-denominational. Certainly would be more SOCIAL.
Day 34. New mantra: "I may relapse tomorrow. DON'T RELAPSE TOMORROW.". Anxious about work on Monday. Impatient for dance night Thursday. Will "I only date women" dance with me and will it feel any different ? Remembering how RELIEVED I was to hear her say these words. I still wanna talk to her. Still wanna LEARN from her.
Unfortunately after a total of 53 days , I relapsed.... feeling so sick of myself. One thing I learn is you have to be always alert......The relapse came out of nowhere. With all the grief, starting again.
Day 35 ? I may relapse tomorrow. DON'T RELAPSE TOMORROW. Dance partners: Still thinking of Dor-----. Talk to her. Make good effort to talk with Amy as well. Hope Maddy is there. Dance with guys. Hell, talk to ANYone. Maybe ...Elizabeth will be there ? Don't panic at work tomorrow.
