60 Days

I’ve made it to about 60 days (lost count but I know it’s been at least 2 months) but honestly it’s been a cruise. I flatlined the second day and from there it’s just been an easy streak. This is the longest I’ve been P and M free in 4 years. Only O has been from two wet dreams. At this point just wondering when the flatline will end, but to be honest the flatline isn’t that bad for me at this point. I just see it as an easy streak.

 

From around 35-50 days I was super depressed and in an emotional flatline, but that has passed. After that short emotional flatline I’ve felt the best emotionally and mentally than I have since being addicted. In terms of my sexual system it’s been the same- completely offline at the moment. I’m not worried about it because I know it needs to recover after 4 years of abuse. So in summary: Feel great emotionally, sexual system still completely down

 

Wow didn’t even notice that. I’ll change it haha. To be honest I’ll probably just take it down and keep it at 0 because I’ve found not keeping track of the specific days has actually helped me focus on the bigger picture rather than each day. But thanks for letting me know!

 

Had a wet dream last night. Felt a little out of it at some points throughout the day, but probably a result of the sleep disturbance rather than the wet dream.