Hi everyone, I'm on my 61st day now, which is a record for me. Never before did I even come close to this number. I'm at a weird state right now. I'm not sure if abstaining from P and M for so long is healthy for my body. I haven't had a night involuntary ejaculation, nothing. Is that normal? Isn't it unhealthy to keep dead sperm inside for so long? Another thing is that for the first IDK how many days, I constantly felt progress. I felt I was getting better, improving. Now, I feel for the second week or so as if nothing was progressing any further. Is that normal too? And lastly, ever since going clean, I never felt a stronger urge to go back to P and M than now. Like the visuals from scenes I used to watch often are flashing in my head through the entire day and it wasn't like that during the first 30-40 days. And since I feel like no progress is happening, it's very tempting to go back and watch P. To be honest, right now, I feel I miss it and I want it back. Is this normal too? What happens next? thanks in advance for replies.