65 day

Today is my 65th day without a PMO.

But today I had a great urge to watch pornography today and I watched a little. I managed to stop myself before it was too late.
I haven't calmed that monster yet, it's still lurking in the darkness of my brain. That's why I'm writing this to distract my thoughts.

I think this came about because I had nothing to do these days and then the monster saw its opportunity. I didn't read books, I didn't workout due to injuries, I spent a lot of time on the phone and watching YouTube videos.
That means I have to be busy if I want to overcome this addiction. I also can't relax too much and think that I will easily overcome this.

Tomorrow I will go to the library and take a book to read and start with some kind of exercises. I also started doing some 3D model in the program and came back to learn Spanish through Dualingo.

I could start studying more often and finally get a degree in mechanical engineering this year, but man, I can't force myself to do that

By the way, I wanted to thank everyone here because I have often read your stories for the past 65 days and that has helped me a lot to get here where I am now. So thank you

 

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