Finished day 1 of 7. Overall not too bad as New Years Eve meant lots of family was around so we played on the Nintendo Wii and watched TV to bring in the new year and didn't get much time to myself. I did buy me some new running shows though in the sales and have committed to the Couch to 5k running app which I've done two runs for now with the 3rd run tomorrow. I did have a close shave last thing before I went to bed but I won't go into too much detail on here as I was watching a Countdown of the year program which had an attractive guy on there but I turned it off and went straight to sleep fortunately as I was already pretty tired from the day so that was a small victory I thought. Onto day 2 of 7.
Day 2 of 3 done. I was supposed to be alone today but situation changed and I was not alone. Its a really good thing because I think I would have slipped. Hoping this is a small turning point.
Finished day 2 of 7 and back at work now at lunchtime in the car. Overall yesterday was OK I revisited my yoga practice which I had committed to daily when I last managed a lengthy period of time without porn and I did get a bit emotional as I was thinking about forgiveness - it sounds really cheesy but rather than thinking oh crap I've watched porn I'm the worst person in the world etc etc just can I forgive myself for looking at it in the past which actually made me feel a bit teary and also made me think I have used porn as a way of escapism which I forgive myself for doing but now I need to try to be able to process these feelings properly. Also it got me thinking about Nofap coming from a place of forgiveness rather than of regret. Hopefully this thought might help someone out there as it has felt quite comforting to me since I thought of it and will hopefully help me progress through the challenge.
