[7-CHALLENGE] THE SEVEN DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 0

 

1/7

 

Relapsed. Managed to power through urges last night, but my electric razor gave out halfway through giving myself a haircut and when I got stuck waiting I gave in to my urges.

 

This is a little funny. Also I can totally relate: something pisses you off and there you go ... I have observed even light irritations caused my brain to produce urges.
But still, a little funny with the empty razor

 

Yesterday I re-commited myself, today I battled with urges, did 'recovery work', wrote a lot of stuff here. Then I exercised, felt good. Back in the flat I started with washing up some dishes, but now back on the computer and urges again. My system wants to use the internet and then, sooner or later, go on p-sites ... breathing helps!

When I was outside for exercise, I thought that after awareness, commitment and techniques to deal with the urges there's one more thing I can do: be strict with myself. I mean at first I couldn't be strict with myself and I needed awareness, commitment and techniques. But the urges can be nasty. So at some point one just have to say "no". Not just no, I don't want to because of this and because of that but no, I'm not allowed. It's decided. No discussion!

I think it was a good thought and I need it right now. I realize what I do right now is (what I like to call) recovery work. For a long time I stopped doing it, because I thought I could improvise, do it in my head and come here just to count days and report about my progress. Turn out I fooled myself and fell pray to the addiction.

Anyway, now I'm in control. Even if it's fragile this is one of the days where I'm on the edge: the choice I make matters!
Well, I actually made up my mind. Now I have to stay my ground. I should behave like an adult.

The day is nearly over. What's left to decide is which two or three things I do before I go to sleep.
Today was a good day! I can be proud of myself and sleep the sleep of the just

 

0/7 -

 

Sure thing. I'm continuing with the next one.

Day 7 here, guys! I'm so proud of myself. Tomorrow I will sign to the next challenge, 14 days. See you all there!

 

Yeah, it is a little funny. I'm just glad I've got something to get me out of the house tomorrow morning to make getting back on track easier.

 

Forgot to post yesterday, Day 3 today

 

0/7 Have to start over

 

2 / 7

 

5/7 time flies

 

Day 0/7
Just arrived from 3 days challenge.

 

Day 4

 

1/7 6 relapses ! this is 7th try

 

7/7.

 

Day 1/7

 

Day 1

 

Day 0

 

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