Day 0 - unmotivated to do anything, tired - even after sleeping 8 hrs a day, lonely - even though I live around my family but no one to talk to no friends, family members, or girlfriend.
My daily routine(for weekdays):
-exercise with cold showers
-read
-write
-keep a daily log
-meditate for a few minutes
I have been keeping a log of my relapses since last year, never able to go beyond 30 days. At best had 4 PMOs in a month for a few months. Recently I have been relapsing once every 2 days.
It feels like I have tried everything and its just hopeless. But what else do I have than to keep on trying.