day 2/7 -couldn't sleep properly last night (slept alone and woke up at around 2 - in between all I felt was anxiety for being alone, going to sleep knowing I'm alone with the fear of ghosts - and got properly back to sleep by 7 in the morning when I could see light outside) -loneliness is back. -A thought came to mind whether to hire a prostitute to feel a sense of touch (I never had true intimacy with anyone, always was single. Age 25 M) -I know it could become a coping mechanism/dependency, which is one of the reasons I don't want it. -other reasons are against my known conscience, takes effort, risky etc
It's day 2 of the 7! I am having a rough time, since my brain is sexualizing everything non-stop. But I withstand it. I have installed a web filter called cleanbrowsing which is a free DNS filter for your computer. You can set a password for disabling uninstallation and disabling the filters. The master password is locked to a word document secured with a password. The password for the word document is a in another word document which is secured by a password, too. I have done this 7 or 8 times to prevent myself from disabling the filter while on autopilot. This helps!
Day 3/7 I already have a DNS filter, cold turkey, and edited host file to block p. Might add another layer by what eloquence had done (just in case, found out its paid service nm).
Day 7/7! I'm stoked to be here, even though I'm hurting a lot from other things in life. It felt so good ticking that seven-day challenge box in my signature. Now on to the 14 day challenge. Looking forward to seeing you there
Day - 0/7 Well.. I joined and signed up for this challenge. I hope I come out successful. This is me starting my journey. Hope after the end of this I can say, Oh My God.. I did it..!! Here I go..
