day 7/7 . I have just completed this challenge @2525 . This is the first time I complete a challenge even if I had some long streaks. In these 7 days I recoverd much energies and I have used for other things than PMO. Go to gym and have hard workout, wake up early to go university and spend good times with friends, I spent a bit of time with family, I am engaged in studying Java. Anyway I understood there are many things about to work as to interact with people, i am very often silent in groups but i want to interact, to have a clear mind , be more social. But this is a subject i will face in the next challenge 14 days challenge
2/7 Iniciando. Es difícil una medida que pasa el tiempo pero trato de que salga a flote mi autocontrol
Day 3. Today was boring, really boring. I had an urge and decided to go to bed and sleep a little bit, I honestly hope, while I am sleeping the brain itself works on the urge. So I wake up today and noticed, that I am not motivated for anything. Nothing really interested me, there was nothing, and still is nothing, what I want to do today. I thinks it is a part of regeneration. It kinda sucks. Was on YouTube and watch puppies, and still there were some nsfw thumbnails, just so that peolple will click it. I hate the adiction, didn’t gave in. Was worth it. Best regards, Jonny
There was this girl & it didn’t work, do I need to explain any further? I am so fucked up right now. Been failing miserably recently. Have also started drinking too much. Last time I felt like this I got into MDMA (glad I dragged myself out of that one). I’m so fucking afraid of myself right now I can hardly leave bed. Constantly thinking like ”what if something bad happens that makes me want to compensate” (you all know what I mean by ”compensate”, right?). Will try to calm down right now. Next week I’ll reset my counter for this 7-day challenge. If I’m strong enough to once again make it through, I might proceed with a longer reboot streak. Right now I really just need to get my shit together - even if just for a few days.
Ill probbaly stop updating if i keep relapsing, but im feeling more optimistic this time, as I found an AP and am on day 2 with no urges. So here we go again!
Sounds like you are making great progress! Use this as a reminder that you ignored the nsfw thumbnails and felt good about it keep up the good work!
