FRIDAY DAY 3/7...almost there, but keeping my guard up from slipping. Just made love to my fiancee. Although it wasn't all fully penetrative sex, it was very intimate. I've been here before where I can only get semi hard (30% today), but pleasured her in other ways, which you and your partner can enjoy just as much. I believe the key to intimacy and healing our PIED is to: 1) not get caught up in how big or hard our dicks are 2) not get stuck in thinking penetrative sex is the only way to pleasure your partner 3) most importantly, start viewing sex and intimacy as a way to make your partner feel pleasure and not get so caught up in your own performance. ENJOY THE MOMENT you both share Luckily, in the past - my partner was/still is understanding. During my first run of NoFap, I explained to my partner that I was going through stress and couldn't get fully hard. I didn't mention my addiction, but regardless she understood, and shortly after that, I was able to get aroused fully hard and finish through penetration. Of course, we pleasured one another in alternative ways leading up to that moment, and tonight's intimacy is very similar. Ultimately, I've felt really good coming in here. Whether it's to help any of my fellow brothers (you) going through what I went through/am going through or simply to reflect and journal, it's keeping me focused and along the right path.
Day 6/7 I handled myself pretty decently in social situations today, altough my eyecontact could be a little bit better. Still got brain fog and my energy levels are still not on the same level as before my relapse.
Day 2 I am incredibly lucky! Yesterday I walked into a massage parlor, fortunately she was booked for the whole day, I even went to another place, i was almost at the door yet i didnt walk in...i am glad I am in the race for NoNutNovember 29 days more to go!!!
7/7 That kinda flew by fast, focusing on other stuff and keeping myself busy really helped! Guess it's time for me to move on to another challenge. I'll see you guys elsewhere, I'm going into the 2 week challenge, Good Luck!
