7 days completed after 80 days relapsed. I'm with you again!

I summarize: I know this is a small numbers. But believe me, I'm trying this for more than 4 years, maybe more. In my story, I have told about how can I start pornography, how it became addiction and sexual conditioning for my life, how it affected to my vision of girls, how can I became unsuccessful for real partners, energy levels, my talking, thinking unclearly, lessons, life motivation, concentration problems, sleep problems etc.

As a person who saw many processes, I can suggest that: Run away from pornography as you can! Everytime you relapsed, it affects your nerve system. And it can be hard to leave this addiction. If you are health person, life seems good for you. I know about nofap about when I was 15. Once I had a nofap process I made more than 5 months. It was unbeliavable! I was pleasuring every small life things, looking at the mirror myself, lessons, listening to music (music quality was up to full HD in my brain) reading books, talking to strangers, girls, parents et cetera.

Yes, here we go again. I have a important test in 24 June. I am preparing this exam again.

Conditions can be difficult, but I will do my best. Today I went to cinema and watched a movie. It was about a little South Korean girl affected to war. She lost everything, her mom, dad, country. And a soldier adopted her...

I mean, in the World, happening a lot of important thing. And I was jerking off with a smartphone or computer screen for many years. I am tring to fix things again.

I started to read yourbrainonporn and watched some videos in there. I use this forum more actively, and search about this addiction more. Last day I watched a documentary about porn addiction, there were Gabe Deem and Noah Church. Maybe you didn't watch until this day:

• I have told about my addiction to my elder sister. And she suggest me professional help. Also I've told my psychological counselor about I had behavioral addiction in my past, starting my early teen , I have under control a little bit but how can I slog on with it. I did not tell '' I have porn addiction.'' There were no details in the conversation.

Benefits:

I have little bit more energy.
I am not feeling depressed and suicidal now.

I'm not English native speaker. If I have mistake the grammer please report me.

Thank you.