7 months Porn free(how I did it)

healingwithlove13

Fapstronaut
Hi guys,

It's a slightly long post, but please read, as I'm sure you'll find something helpful.

I'm 36 years old, and single. I've been 7 months Porn free, which is a huge success for me, since I've been addicted to Porn for about 20 years. I'm also 44 days MO free, last PMO streak was 68 days.
I've been trying to do reboots since 2014, but with no succcess as I was doing it mindlessly, and was unaware about underlying issues.
Covid'19 started my spiritual journey when I started seeking answers to my miserable life, in spiritual books, gurus and contemplating about my life.


What got me through?
Basically, a lot of inner work, which I describe below.

1) Forgiveness - I realized I was carrying enormous anger and resentment against my parents, grandparents, my father's brother's family, my father's sister's family, my sister and her family, some of my friends etc.
Negative emotions like anger, resentment, judgement, non-forgiveness are very harmful for body/mind, and make your life and of those around you, very miserable. But I had suppressed these emtions due to being raised like a nice guy,
so I seeked comfort in Porn. Over time, it had become a habit and it was very hard to break. Through spiritual books, I learned that forgiveness sets you free from the past and gives you a chance to start over. So, I tried to forgive
and bless everybody I was angry against, and it turned out they were many like I mentioned above. It has taken me nearly 4 years now to forgive everyone, bless them, and release some situations over which I have no control over.
Now, this forgiveness is not just mind thing, it comes from my heart as I do wish the best for them. But it's easier said than done to forgive, and those who have carried self-righteous judgement within them for a long time, would agree.
That's why I would recommend reading spiritual books or follow a good spiritual guru.

2) Self-Forgiveness & Self-Love - This is a big one. I had extreme low self-worth since childhood. My sexual confidence was destroyed when I noticed a small benign cyst on my penis head when I was probably 13 years old. And I could not share it with anyone in
the family since my parents had their own issues and were extremely unhappy with each other, and used to fight over petty things. And this low self-worth led me to make some sexual mistakes with my cousins, as I thought I would never be in a
relationship due to something being wrong with me, and I learned some wrong things from my older cousin also. So, these mistakes were in the back of my head all my life, and somehow I was living my life, but during Covid'19 pandemic, 15 years after My
mistakes, as I was reading books and also became aware of God, I realized the gravity of my mistakes. That realization led me straight into deep depression, and I even thought about suicide and was probably about to do it one day too, but the
universe helped me that day by sending a message typed through my sister's phone via my 9 month old niece's hands. So, that message made me realize that God doesn't think so badly and lowly of me as I do. So, I contnued with my journey.
I started observing my inner talk, and became aware that it was all very negative. I thought myself as very imperfect, a sinner, totally unlovable; and I was very angry at myself too for making those mistakes.
With each failed reboot, my anger at myself grew stronger and stronger, and my inner chatter was going worse and worse inspite of doing prayers and positive affirmations. That's when I felt intuitively guided to forgive myself and love myself.
So, gradually since 2020, I've been doing self-forgiveness and self-love work, and this year(2024), I've seen results. I'm no longer angry at myself, I have forgiven myself with spiritual understanding and have also begun to love myself.
Being Porn free for 7 months, has also cleared my mind and my prayers/affirmations have started to work, and I'm no longer going up and down. Last year in 2023, even when I relapsed, I continued to love myself inspite of the anger and fear.
So, with love growing in my heart for myself and others, negative emtions have subsided and positive emotions of love, joy, gratitude and appreciation have arisen. It became easier to love and forgive.

3) Meditation - I've been meditating on and off since 2020 for about 45-60 mins at a time, and I've meditated regularly in 2024 since Jan, every morning. Meditation slowed down my mind and life so that all that was suppressed came to surface,
to be dealth with fully and no longer pushed down or to a corner. It also connected me to the peace and joy that are already within us, and we can feel them when our minds are calm. The Meditation that I do is very simple :- I just sit with
my eyes closed and keep my awareness between my forehead, and just observe my thoughts, and gradually the thoughts become less and less, and a feeling of stillness arises, where I dwell for the remaining time. Meditation is absolutely must on
any healing journey.

4) Spiritual Knowledge - To be honest, the inner work of forgiveness, self-love, and loving others is not as easy it might look to some, and I'm sure that I might never become Porn free without the spiritual knowledge, as I didn't even know
what the underlying problem was. Doing mindless reboots produced no or very less results. People who are new doing reboots will also come to understanding this sooner or later. True healing requires us to address the root causes, and not just
fight the enemy like porn or any other addiction. To give an anology, if you just cut the stem of the plant, and don't remove the roots, the plant will re-grow. So, you have to cut the roots.

5) Routine - Now, knowledge is one thing and applying it in your life is another. You have to become a new person, it's not just about removing Porn from your life. It's about becoming a new person, with a new mindset that Porn is not
an option no matter what the situation. And Routine is a huge part of this process. You have to show up as that new person every single day. Previously, I was unable to maintain a routine throughout my entire life isnpite of my best efforts because
inner issues were not dealt with. This year, I've maintained a consistent routine since early Jan. I wake up at 7 am, meditate till 8 am, read positive affirmations, and since last couple of months, have added weight lifting after doing the affirmations.
So, it's a nice morning routine, that spreads positive energy throughout the day. I sleep daily at about 11-11:30 pm.

Also, Benefits so far :-
- Other addictions like smoking, drinking, sexual fantasies dropped away.
- Nice daily routine
- The peace of mind is really great, and it's the greatest thing I appreciate now.
- I'm an honest person now. I confessed my mistakes to my family members(the hardest thing I've had to do), and they forgave me.
- My knowledge on metaphysics has become good, and I understand how our thoughts create our reality.
- My heart is a lot more open now, I can easily talk to people and can hold deep meaningful conversations. I can also play with children, with whom I couldn't connect earlier.
- I know that entire humanity is one family, and all of us are children of the One God.
- I love nature.
- My energy has changed a lot, my face looks a lot different. Things happen easier for me than before.
- I feel clean from within, whereas I felt so dirty previously.
- Life looks beautiful now, even with its challenges.

I' currently doing a full hard reboot, to allow deeper healing to take place and I'm already 44 days into it, and flatlining. But I'm open to a relationship this time, as I'm think relationship is more than just sex. And I'm sure the inner cleansing and healing
that has already taken place, my genitals will back up online in full honor in due time. I'm not a fan of celibacy, and don't plan to purse it. My only grief was due to my huge guilt, and just being in 1 sexual relationship, and so MO gives more guilt.
I believe it would be very different in a relationship, and God has created sex not to be done just 2 times in your life(to have babies), it's a great pleasure that human beings get to experience, but due to ignorance, we fell and wandered.
Sex is sacred & holy, and not be done with guilt, but first we must reset ourselves and cleanse our energy.

I wish healings to all the brothers here.

Cheers!
 
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like your comments that "you need to become a new person and show up as new person daily". i also like you mentioned meditation , forgiveness and love. But I have different perspectives on God and sex. I know many non-believers came to God bc their struggles with sinful habits and psychological issues. It is good to see their improvements. but religions are very complicated issues. as you have deeper dive, you will encounter more confusing moments and even many things that make you no longer believe especially true for Abrahamic religions. It is good to have some spiritual component. but the scope should be confined that it can solve porn addiction for now. If you go beyond that, the problems become so big that you will be lost. About sex. it looks sex is in many ways a sacrificial action. you feel tired and lost energy after sexual behaviors. it seems to be mostly for reproduction and having bond with your partner.
 
like your comments that "you need to become a new person and show up as new person daily". i also like you mentioned meditation , forgiveness and love. But I have different perspectives on God and sex. I know many non-believers came to God bc their struggles with sinful habits and psychological issues. It is good to see their improvements. but religions are very complicated issues. as you have deeper dive, you will encounter more confusing moments and even many things that make you no longer believe especially true for Abrahamic religions. It is good to have some spiritual component. but the scope should be confined that it can solve porn addiction for now. If you go beyond that, the problems become so big that you will be lost. About sex. it looks sex is in many ways a sacrificial action. you feel tired and lost energy after sexual behaviors. it seems to be mostly for reproduction and having bond with your partner.

Hi, I had also started to believe in 2022, that sex is just for making babies and all other sex is bad. But with time, those beliefs have changed as I read more books and followed more spiritually enlightened people. I don't look up to religions to give answers, they don't have all. Truth must be derived from your own experience and increasing your knowledge. There is definitely a drop in energy for men after ejaculation, but there's also recovery, and the recovery period is different for everyone. And many people have sex without ejaculating, or ejaculating rarely, but I will not recommend to try these techniques when on a reboot, it will degrade progress further. And sex like other things is a personal choice, many people don't even like it that much as they are more focussed on other things. Freedom lies in finding out what works for you.
 
Hi there! First of congratulations on your journey so far! Your story is really inspirational and there's so much things all of us can learn from your experience! Thanks for sharing

as I am also on my journey, I would like to learn from you as I believe I am in the similar situation as well

my questions is that how do you practice your self-love & self forgiveness, I've read a lot online about this but am struggling to do it. Like how does one love themselves ? Or forgive themselves?
 
Hi there! First of congratulations on your journey so far! Your story is really inspirational and there's so much things all of us can learn from your experience! Thanks for sharing

as I am also on my journey, I would like to learn from you as I believe I am in the similar situation as well

my questions is that how do you practice your self-love & self forgiveness, I've read a lot online about this but am struggling to do it. Like how does one love themselves ? Or forgive themselves?

Thanks for the appreciation brother. And you've asked a great question, of how to practice self-love and self-forgiveness? A question which I think I can't answer in the written space, but I'll try to.
These were the same questions I had in mind in 2020, how to forgive myself, and what the fuck is self-love. I've never heard that term before in my 32 years of life.
So, for some, forgiveness, self-love, loving others are huge soul lessons, which are impossible without spiritual knowledge. And for spiritual knowledge, there is no straight path, I can suggest you books, but each book can then start a journey for you, like you will get some answers, but the mind will come up with more questions, then you'll read more books, and so on like that. But I will write some things about both, which may be helpful to you.

Self-forgiveness -
We sometimes find unable to forgive ourselves, because we have some pre-conceived notion in our minds, of how things will unfold, and this notion can be a result of things learned from family, society, news, movies. So, in my mind, only possible scenarios were running away, or committing suicide; both of which I found were not for greater good of me and those around me. After reading a lot of books, I could think of a new possibility of apologizing to my family members, and go from there, but this possibility was full of fear and humiliation for me; and it took a lot of courage to do so; but I can tell you now, that it was very rewarding. It released me from my guilt, I became more honest and open with my family. And only after apologizing, I could think of the possibility of getting married. Now, for some, my path will look hard or unforgiving towards myself; and I also think so, but that was the only way I could move ahead based on my principles. But I'm also glad, that it happened only this way.

Now there can be some blocks for self-forgiveness, but some knowledge can definitely help you like :-
1) When people are committing mistakes, they don't know that they are making mistakes. To them, it doesn't look like a mistake. Only after committing mistakes, and eating the fruits of their mistakes in the long run, they come to the realization of their mistakes, and through this path, they learn their lessons and grow spiritually. This is not happenstance, but a life process through which every soul goes through sooner or later. So, everyone makes mistakes, big or small. The best thing to do is learn from your mistakes, forgive yourself, apologize if possible, bless those whom you hurt, and move ahead in your life.
2) I found unable to forgive myself until I had bad/negative thoughts for my family members, so I did prayers/affirmations for every single family member and friend, whom I was angry against, until the bad thoughts diminshed completely, and only blessings remained. This was a very long and time-taking process, and sometimes my thoughts were getting worse. But I persisted, grew in knowledge, and kept praying. So, forgiveness is a 2-way street. You can't forgive yourself completely until you forgiven everyone else, and you can't forgive others completely until you have learned to forgive yourself. So, keep practicing both. Only when you can understand and forgive your mistakes, can you find the wisdom and love in your heart, to forgive others.
3) We aren't born with all the knowledge or experience, we make mistakes, learn and grow. So, instead of blaming or criticizing the past, bless your past that it made you realize your mistakes, and you wouldn't be where you are were it not for your past; and now you have a fresh oppurtunity to start over with more wisdom. You can make it your best life, become your highest self, help others, spread love and light on this planet and glorify God in this way. Self-punishment, blaming is a wasted life. Life is journey from darkness to light, and when you accept all parts of you and heal them, you will become whole.

Self-Love -
A lot of us have many false beliefs in our minds, so we think we are completely unlovable. Beliefs like
- I'm not enough, good enough, smart enough, beautiful enough etc
- I'm not perfect, have to always strive for some perfection
- My body, some parts, genitals are not good enough, something wrong with me

So, you have to understand that every one of us is a perfect and magnificent creation of the universe. Not everyone is alike, everybody is different, but perfect in our own way. So, first, you have to learn to accept yourself exactly as you are, and stop all fault finding. Then, you should appreciate everything about you, be grateful for everything you have. Don't even criticise yourself even if you find yourself making mistakes due to habit like PMO. Just keep growing in love, appreciation, praise and gratitude for yourself and others.
You can spread love, only when you have that love first for yourself. For some, loving self is the hardest because we know ourselves too closely, but your greatest growth will come through this only. Only when you can accept yourself fully with all your mistakes and virtues, forgive yourself, can find that love in your heart for yourself, can appreciate your learning process, the hardships humans have to go through, only when you have made yourself fully loving and joyful, can that love then flow out through you to all those around you, and so this journey becomes a necessary one, because good of one is the good of all. Make yourself a fragrance spreading flower my friend, and in this way, you will trigger so many transformations for so many people without any effort. Ultimately, we are all one, and the whole can't be happy and whole, until everyone is happy and whole, so every person must heal themselves first, and then live their blessed life to spread blessings around.
I'm still learning and growing, but I'm happy and perfect in my imperfections now. Goal is to enjoy the journey. Principles are for life, but you should also not waste the gift of human life because of principles.

Not possible to write everything, and I'm not good at writing either, so I'll end it here. :-)

Wish you healing, brother.
 
Hey man, just want to say I love your posts. I agree on a lot of points you are making, but I think you are a bit further along them I am. I have just only started the paths towards self-forgiveness and self-love this year and I understand how they are important to the healing process. Once you recognize the negative thoughts, accepting them and at the same time forgiving yourself and practicing self-love can be very liberating. Success with your journey. Any books you might recommend?
 
Hey man, just want to say I love your posts. I agree on a lot of points you are making, but I think you are a bit further along them I am. I have just only started the paths towards self-forgiveness and self-love this year and I understand how they are important to the healing process. Once you recognize the negative thoughts, accepting them and at the same time forgiving yourself and practicing self-love can be very liberating. Success with your journey. Any books you might recommend?

Hey, thanks man for the appreciation. Yes, forgiveness and love are essential for true healing. I'm sharing few books by separate authors, which I've found to be very helpful to me. But keep in mind, no book, no author, no guru has all the answers, but they do their best to share all the knowledge they have. Ultimately, your own life is the best book, and your own intuition is the best guide, and you can figure out many answers by studying your own life. But understanding Universal laws are very helpful, and they definitely help you shorten your spiritual journey.
If you want to develop deep spiritual understanding, I would recommend just reading Joseph Murphy and Catherine Ponder. I haven't read Letting Go book yet, but I know it's good.
  • Creative Meditation - Dr. Joseph Murphy
  • Open your mind to prosperity - Catherine Ponder
  • You can heal your life - Louise Hay
  • Game of life and How to play it, Magic Path of Intuition - Florence Scovel Shinn
  • Power of Now - Eckhart Tolle
  • Letting Go - David R. Hawkins
 
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Hey, thanks man for the appreciation. Yes, forgiveness and love are essential for true healing. I'm sharing few books by separate authors, which I've found to be very helpful to me. But keep in mind, no book, no author, no guru has all the answers, but they do their best to share all the knowledge they have. Ultimately, your own life is the best book, and your own intuition is the best guide, and you can figure out many answers by studying your own life. But understanding Universal laws are very helpful, and they definitely help you shorten your spiritual journey.
If you want to develop deep spiritual understanding, I would recommend just reading Joseph Murphy and Catherine Ponder. I haven't read Letting Go book yet, but I know it's good.
  • Creative Meditation - Dr. Joseph Murphy
  • Open your mind to prosperity - Catherine Ponder
  • You can heal your life - Louise Hay
  • Game of life and How to play it, Magic Path of Intuition - Florence Scovel Shinn
  • Power of Now - Eckhart Tolle
  • Letting Go - David R. Hawkins
"
Thanks, i will check them out! I did read Eckhart Tolle's book. it's a great one.
 
Thank you for sharing your story and congratulations for your success. It inspires me a lot reading your story and i could also relate to your story somewhat and it gave me hope that i can heal as well. Thanks a lot mate
 
Thank you for sharing your story and congratulations for your success. It inspires me a lot reading your story and i could also relate to your story somewhat and it gave me hope that i can heal as well. Thanks a lot mate

I'm glad you found my story inspiring. Yes, healing is possible for everyone; persistence and loving yourself throughout your healing journey is key. I wish you success :)
 
1) Forgiveness - I realized I was carrying enormous anger and resentment against my parents, grandparents, my father's brother's family, my father's sister's family, my sister and her family, some of my friends etc.
Negative emotions like anger, resentment, judgement, non-forgiveness are very harmful for body/mind, and make your life and of those around you, very miserable. But I had suppressed these emtions due to being raised like a nice guy,
so I seeked comfort in Porn. Over time, it had become a habit and it was very hard to break. Through spiritual books, I learned that forgiveness sets you free from the past and gives you a chance to start over. So, I tried to forgive
and bless everybody I was angry against, and it turned out they were many like I mentioned above. It has taken me nearly 4 years now to forgive everyone, bless them, and release some situations over which I have no control over.
Now, this forgiveness is not just mind thing, it comes from my heart as I do wish the best for them. But it's easier said than done to forgive, and those who have carried self-righteous judgement within them for a long time, would agree.
That's why I would recommend reading spiritual books or follow a good spiritual guru.

2) Self-Forgiveness & Self-Love - This is a big one. I had extreme low self-worth since childhood. My sexual confidence was destroyed when I noticed a small benign cyst on my penis head when I was probably 13 years old. And I could not share it with anyone in
the family since my parents had their own issues and were extremely unhappy with each other, and used to fight over petty things. And this low self-worth led me to make some sexual mistakes with my cousins, as I thought I would never be in a
relationship due to something being wrong with me, and I learned some wrong things from my older cousin also. So, these mistakes were in the back of my head all my life, and somehow I was living my life, but during Covid'19 pandemic, 15 years after My
mistakes, as I was reading books and also became aware of God, I realized the gravity of my mistakes. That realization led me straight into deep depression, and I even thought about suicide and was probably about to do it one day too, but the
universe helped me that day by sending a message typed through my sister's phone via my 9 month old niece's hands. So, that message made me realize that God doesn't think so badly and lowly of me as I do. So, I contnued with my journey.
I started observing my inner talk, and became aware that it was all very negative. I thought myself as very imperfect, a sinner, totally unlovable; and I was very angry at myself too for making those mistakes.
With each failed reboot, my anger at myself grew stronger and stronger, and my inner chatter was going worse and worse inspite of doing prayers and positive affirmations. That's when I felt intuitively guided to forgive myself and love myself.
So, gradually since 2020, I've been doing self-forgiveness and self-love work, and this year(2024), I've seen results. I'm no longer angry at myself, I have forgiven myself with spiritual understanding and have also begun to love myself.
forgiveness is criminally underrated
 
Hi guys,

It's a slightly long post, but please read, as I'm sure you'll find something helpful.

I'm 36 years old, and single. I've been 7 months Porn free, which is a huge success for me, since I've been addicted to Porn for about 20 years. I'm also 44 days MO free, last PMO streak was 68 days.
I've been trying to do reboots since 2014, but with no succcess as I was doing it mindlessly, and was unaware about underlying issues.
Covid'19 started my spiritual journey when I started seeking answers to my miserable life, in spiritual books, gurus and contemplating about my life.


What got me through?
Basically, a lot of inner work, which I describe below.

1) Forgiveness - I realized I was carrying enormous anger and resentment against my parents, grandparents, my father's brother's family, my father's sister's family, my sister and her family, some of my friends etc.
Negative emotions like anger, resentment, judgement, non-forgiveness are very harmful for body/mind, and make your life and of those around you, very miserable. But I had suppressed these emtions due to being raised like a nice guy,
so I seeked comfort in Porn. Over time, it had become a habit and it was very hard to break. Through spiritual books, I learned that forgiveness sets you free from the past and gives you a chance to start over. So, I tried to forgive
and bless everybody I was angry against, and it turned out they were many like I mentioned above. It has taken me nearly 4 years now to forgive everyone, bless them, and release some situations over which I have no control over.
Now, this forgiveness is not just mind thing, it comes from my heart as I do wish the best for them. But it's easier said than done to forgive, and those who have carried self-righteous judgement within them for a long time, would agree.
That's why I would recommend reading spiritual books or follow a good spiritual guru.

2) Self-Forgiveness & Self-Love - This is a big one. I had extreme low self-worth since childhood. My sexual confidence was destroyed when I noticed a small benign cyst on my penis head when I was probably 13 years old. And I could not share it with anyone in
the family since my parents had their own issues and were extremely unhappy with each other, and used to fight over petty things. And this low self-worth led me to make some sexual mistakes with my cousins, as I thought I would never be in a
relationship due to something being wrong with me, and I learned some wrong things from my older cousin also. So, these mistakes were in the back of my head all my life, and somehow I was living my life, but during Covid'19 pandemic, 15 years after My
mistakes, as I was reading books and also became aware of God, I realized the gravity of my mistakes. That realization led me straight into deep depression, and I even thought about suicide and was probably about to do it one day too, but the
universe helped me that day by sending a message typed through my sister's phone via my 9 month old niece's hands. So, that message made me realize that God doesn't think so badly and lowly of me as I do. So, I contnued with my journey.
I started observing my inner talk, and became aware that it was all very negative. I thought myself as very imperfect, a sinner, totally unlovable; and I was very angry at myself too for making those mistakes.
With each failed reboot, my anger at myself grew stronger and stronger, and my inner chatter was going worse and worse inspite of doing prayers and positive affirmations. That's when I felt intuitively guided to forgive myself and love myself.
So, gradually since 2020, I've been doing self-forgiveness and self-love work, and this year(2024), I've seen results. I'm no longer angry at myself, I have forgiven myself with spiritual understanding and have also begun to love myself.
Being Porn free for 7 months, has also cleared my mind and my prayers/affirmations have started to work, and I'm no longer going up and down. Last year in 2023, even when I relapsed, I continued to love myself inspite of the anger and fear.
So, with love growing in my heart for myself and others, negative emtions have subsided and positive emotions of love, joy, gratitude and appreciation have arisen. It became easier to love and forgive.

3) Meditation - I've been meditating on and off since 2020 for about 45-60 mins at a time, and I've meditated regularly in 2024 since Jan, every morning. Meditation slowed down my mind and life so that all that was suppressed came to surface,
to be dealth with fully and no longer pushed down or to a corner. It also connected me to the peace and joy that are already within us, and we can feel them when our minds are calm. The Meditation that I do is very simple :- I just sit with
my eyes closed and keep my awareness between my forehead, and just observe my thoughts, and gradually the thoughts become less and less, and a feeling of stillness arises, where I dwell for the remaining time. Meditation is absolutely must on
any healing journey.

4) Spiritual Knowledge - To be honest, the inner work of forgiveness, self-love, and loving others is not as easy it might look to some, and I'm sure that I might never become Porn free without the spiritual knowledge, as I didn't even know
what the underlying problem was. Doing mindless reboots produced no or very less results. People who are new doing reboots will also come to understanding this sooner or later. True healing requires us to address the root causes, and not just
fight the enemy like porn or any other addiction. To give an anology, if you just cut the stem of the plant, and don't remove the roots, the plant will re-grow. So, you have to cut the roots.

5) Routine - Now, knowledge is one thing and applying it in your life is another. You have to become a new person, it's not just about removing Porn from your life. It's about becoming a new person, with a new mindset that Porn is not
an option no matter what the situation. And Routine is a huge part of this process. You have to show up as that new person every single day. Previously, I was unable to maintain a routine throughout my entire life isnpite of my best efforts because
inner issues were not dealt with. This year, I've maintained a consistent routine since early Jan. I wake up at 7 am, meditate till 8 am, read positive affirmations, and since last couple of months, have added weight lifting after doing the affirmations.
So, it's a nice morning routine, that spreads positive energy throughout the day. I sleep daily at about 11-11:30 pm.

Also, Benefits so far :-
- Other addictions like smoking, drinking, sexual fantasies dropped away.
- Nice daily routine
- The peace of mind is really great, and it's the greatest thing I appreciate now.
- I'm an honest person now. I confessed my mistakes to my family members(the hardest thing I've had to do), and they forgave me.
- My knowledge on metaphysics has become good, and I understand how our thoughts create our reality.
- My heart is a lot more open now, I can easily talk to people and can hold deep meaningful conversations. I can also play with children, with whom I couldn't connect earlier.
- I know that entire humanity is one family, and all of us are children of the One God.
- I love nature.
- My energy has changed a lot, my face looks a lot different. Things happen easier for me than before.
- I feel clean from within, whereas I felt so dirty previously.
- Life looks beautiful now, even with its challenges.

I' currently doing a full hard reboot, to allow deeper healing to take place and I'm already 44 days into it, and flatlining. But I'm open to a relationship this time, as I'm think relationship is more than just sex. And I'm sure the inner cleansing and healing
that has already taken place, my genitals will back up online in full honor in due time. I'm not a fan of celibacy, and don't plan to purse it. My only grief was due to my huge guilt, and just being in 1 sexual relationship, and so MO gives more guilt.
I believe it would be very different in a relationship, and God has created sex not to be done just 2 times in your life(to have babies), it's a great pleasure that human beings get to experience, but due to ignorance, we fell and wandered.
Sex is sacred & holy, and not be done with guilt, but first we must reset ourselves and cleanse our energy.

I wish healings to all the brothers here.

Cheers!
really inspirational, it gives hope to many! Thanks for sharing
 
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