8 weeks(almost 2 months clean)

So yeah, i finally almost 2 months. I never dreamed to go this far when the last time i fully commited to reboot was 6 years ago and keep falling because my ex keeps teasing me with sexting and topless photos(we have long distance relationship, so we can't make love).

-I repair my relationship with my 2nd ex
-I repair my relationship with everyone, including the one i hate
-Workout everyday, 5 km jogging/run per day
-I finally brave enough to talk with girl
-I want intimacy with girl, not just sex, i want affection, i want to cuddle
- semen leakage still happens, but not often like in week 5-6
-I concentrate on work and money, because i love you sentence wont make my future wife stomach full
-Talk more to my father
-Avoiding sex jokes or erotica
-Sexy images are enemies
-Rarely browse Twitter and Instagram, eat Quota, filter is too lenient
-Flatline sometimes come, suicidal thinking is one thing i hate the most

I plan to marry in 2-3 years from now. So i wont go back to P or M.

If i want to M, my future wife Will M-ing me. Only real sex. No image, No video. ONLY REAL SEX ALLOWED

This will be my lifestyle, otw 90 days! HARDMODE

 

one of flatline symptomps are suicidal thinking. After a day of suicidal thinking, i am happy and a hard morning wood. So, i just adapt to it even tought that's bitter