checking out day 2. Day was good. Somewhat productive. Hope you guys had a good day. let's keep on rocking.
Failed last Friday. Back down to day 2 (or 3, but I am gonna go with the lower number when rounding). I really want this, but it is really hard. It's just fapping, nothing more, but it still seems to be impossible to break this habit sometimes...
day 0 ..... Relapsed ..Actually I was in my senses ,no porn, THOSE WHO GET SEDUCED EASILY DONT READ NEXT but tried to manstubate .I don't know why but I was in such a dilemma . I wasted time on you tube . Erected penis and just when I had to start manstubation .I stopped .I AM CHARACHTERLESS I exited from u tube and sat down sitting and thinking what it was .I consider it one of the worst moments .sorry guys . But I have made continuous improvements after coming to nofap 13 days 1 St streak ,19 days 2nd streak .... ... ...... ......when will I make it 90 days ?
you focusing too much on not fapping bro, it´s a dead end. focus on what to DO with your time. focus on that and the urges will pass, garanteed. as an emergency protocol, get out of the house or take a cold shower.
you entered automatic mode, it´s hard to stop when your rational mind stops functioning. i would suggest to avoid any kind of hesitation by always be with somebody, surf the net with the door open and with screen facing exposure. never take the mobile to the bathroom. create physical barriers, it´s very important at least in the first weeks where the addiction is stronger.
very good brother, but don´t test yourself too much. we can never tell when the addiction will kick in, many times out of nowhere. maintain caution, stay focus.
well, this thread is packed!!! my 50 likes exausted long before end . you guys are amazing thanks for the words brothers. really aprecciate it. last night another major urge pop up, but this time i keep my shit together and didn´t screw up so 24 hours have passed, 1 day out!!!! this time no fooling around, if i have to be home alone, it will be without mobile/laptop. yes sir. onwards!!!!!
The thing is, in my experience, that there is nothing new to get over this. It has all been presented. I have been here for over two years, unable to make a change until now that i have been sober for almost three months....what has changed for me? 1. I am going to be 50 years old on January of the next year and I realized how I have spent 49 years playing with the same matches and hoping not to get burned and I said enough! I am done playing with the f...ing matches. I am getting closer to death and I want to die in peace' free from PMO. 2. One of the biggest problems for me was that I was holding on the idea that i was "only" going to be happy if I was free from PMO...and that if i relapse was the worst form of suffering and misery...this is called dualism and its an illusion. So if I am free from PMO, then I am sooo happy, and if I relapse, then happiness will go away..no true! It is all karma and it is all an illusion...and regardless whats happening you can use it to your benefit both the medicine and the poison...this is called equanimity... Those two things have helped me tremendously..hope it helps you
