Day 32 I can't believe I'm in the thirties. I had a sexual thought today morning remembering sex with a hooker. My minds is clever. But I think it's my disease reminding me what it used to be like. Not what it should be. Great day everyone
Today I will not do anything behind my wife's back. I'll be honest to her, not only about porn and masturbation but also about each and every small things. Even a small lie or secret creates in me a tension or feeling uneasy.
16/90 last night had an urge. But my practice making it easier to get over it. Really want to say those struggling "Just believe in you". Normally whenever we do something which we think is not good for us (like watching P), our head keep telling us to not fall for it, we just need to cultivate the practice of listening to that positive sound coming from our head. Once you do it 2-3 times it will get easier for your mind to follow that path. With each win you will get stronger, believe me. One day at a time. Cheers!!
