Day 74/90. Some of my greatest fears have been realized these past couple of weeks. However I don't look for an escape to fall back to. I'm not going to hide behind a computer all day and use urges as an excuse to make myself feel better. Nope. I'll go through it because these things happen in life. I'll live through this pain once and become better. It will be uncomfortable, but I'd rather be uncomfortable and grow than to be medicorly stagnant. When urges come, I breifly think about it and move on. I have my future self kick my ass and remind myself constantly what I truly want and most importantly don't want in life. 16 more days left. I'm grateful I gave myself the chance and the courage to change.