[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Checkin day 68/90

 

2 Days done.

 

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10/90

 

Day 21/90

 

Second day check in.

 

Day 13/90 checking in. Still I need to learn to take up responsibilities. Many things I have been ignoring since a long time. It is time. Until I take up those.... Nothing changes drastically. Cheers.

 

Day 84. Very stressful conversation in the evening with people who have been important for my wife and me for couple of years but at the same time - probably this relationship with them needs to end.

There were urges yesterday evening and today in the morning to release this huge tension with masturbation and youtube. Fortunatelly, urges passed.

I can see the pattern: big stress or/and being completelly not understood or/and rejected by someone ->
urge to "feel better" with masturbation. So far, whenever I believed this lie, I ended up in misery.

My destructive pattern from the past years - vicious cycle:
Feeling bad->masturbation/porn->feeling worse after masturbation/porn->masturbation/porn-> Feeling bad, etc.

I am thankful to God that He gave me strengt to avoid this vicious cycle again.

 

Day 39...keep going, keep coming back, don’t give up!

 

Today morning I had extremely strong morning wood, I bet that is a healthy sign of recovery in progress.

 

day 2

 

05/90

 

17/90

 

Day 1 complete!

Let's gooooo!

 

39/90
I had some urges, and a really strong erection. I don't know why I felt that much of urges, but fortunatly passed.

 

***Day 10*** This morning, for the first time during this streak I had some urges, but I was stronger this time.

 

Day 5/90.

Which pornblocker do you guys use for Mac? My k9 doesn't work anymore... really need a blocker

 

Day 1/90

 

Day 23

Good time out with friends last night. I badly need connection with friends. It creates an emotional deficit when I just function alone. Godspeed Y’all.

 

Day 51/90 .