day 0 and even though i don't think i'm ready for this challenge, i'll force myself! benefits of being wayward.
36th day Check-in. You think that it will be everyday lighter but then you find that there are more problems than addiction in your life. It will be probably the most difficult day of all. Let's make right it till the end!!! No surrender!!! I wish you all the best, stay strong!!
You’re also a victim of a dirty trick, a devious snare. And you deserve compassion. Great job waking up from that hell and realizing that you need change. Good luck on your journey. You’re a good man.
Sorry brother! You’re a good man who failed, not a failure. Please get back up and start again! You’re an enormous encouragement to all of us.
Day 34 I realized that this game I was playing was really just a tool to escape my real life. It’s an app game on my phone and I was playing it all the time, it was actually affecting my productivity, parenting, even my marriage. On Friday night I told my online buddies that I had to quit and left the game. Trying to focus on the real world and remain engaged. Trying to learn how to rest appropriately instead of constantly dissociating from life.
yeah, all of this is kind of surreal if we look at it. it´s really akward. i mean, we are literally ruining our entires lifes over urges that pass in minutes. urges!!!! and what we do? we choose urges urges > life hard to believe.
see where the turning point was. when you start doubting? when you start hesitating? look deep within, if you can´t find an answer no one can.
my friends, this is for all the brothers who relapsed and to those who are on the brink of it. answer this 2 questions clearly, see this clearly as daylight: - isn´t nofap an essencial element for being happy? being free, strong and being mentally sharp? isn´t nofap essencial for creating an amazing life? for regaining all the stuff that porn stole from you. - is there any way, any method, any chance that PMO can stay in your life? can you stay with porn? can you allow yourself to have a snack once in a while? see this clearly within yourself. only when these two core principles are deeply engrain in you without any doubt you´ll understand that porn will never be an option. so even if the whole world crumbles, you´ll stand your ground: "PMO is not an option. not now, not ever" i know how hard this is. i´m on the same boat, having the same urges, being bombarded by PMO thoughts like all of you, and at the same time having to deal with the harships of life, the pain, the rejection, the hurt, the disappointment, the stresses of life. but isn´t this all life? as it is? without clouding it by any distorced method that does not only solves but also creates a second problem. face life my friends. face life. don´t run from it. live fully the all spectrum, the good and the bad, because that way you´ll grow. stay on the path. in a few months you´ll be so happy that you have to pinch yourself to believe. if your future self, 50 years from now, would look at you right now, at a brink of a relapse, what would he say? remember when you were a kid having all those dreams of being a firefighter? or an astronaut? you dream of having an epic life? if your past self looked at you right now, would he be proud of you? you´re not immortal, so set your mind straight ASAP. your life or porn, you can´t have them both. when you stop lying to yourself, when all is crystal clear, go for the reboot. don´t try, DO
Day 3/90. We're starting the counter again, and I know to be wary on Wednesdays and Fridays. Hopefully, I can control myself this week, and get past that 7 day mark for the first time in a while!
Can't control. Can't stop my bringing upon pmo. It's out of my hands right now. I am trying cold showers...keeping busy but still getting urge while busy and Turning to pmo automatically.