I’m having a really down day. I went out in town last night for a few drinks with friends. This was my first time out since entering recovery after my breakup. I felt really low in confidence and very anxious. I’m 77 days free of PMO but I haven’t encountered any ‘superpowers’. I feel that the brain fog has cleared. I’m now fully aware of the issues I’ve been using PMO to escape from - social anxiety, low self esteem, self hatred. I’m getting counselling to try and overcome these issues. I know these feelings are not rational but they are incredible heavy and overpowering. I don’t want to use antidepressants and will continue to avoid going down that path. Hopefully the C.B.T. will produce results along with my own reading and research.