Even though as number of days is progressing goal is getting nearer but kind of excitement is gone which was at day 0,1,2....it look like I'm going to fail myself once again...cant even find interest in mentioning but still its day 52/90
Yeah, it actually goes like this. At the first days you are superexcited and then the excitement is just decreasing. You need to motivate yourself somehow (read about it, watch videos etc.). If you would go to gym until you get the first pains in your arm, and then you would stop, you wouldn't develope right? You need to go through this period when you're without excitement. If you will leave this challenge, you will be sorry, because one day you'll need to leave this addiction if you want to grow. Please don't give up my friend
Today is day 90 - wow!! How the hell did I get here?! I’ve been so down in the dumps for so long. Today I woke up feeling good. The rumination over the past has been a lot less over the past 24 hours. I just did 20 minutes of mindfulness to start the day. I hope this is sign of good things to come. I feel good.
Last 15 days had been unproductive but I will again try to stick to my time table to get my life on track...even i also i cant afford 52 days of efforts...just searching a way to keep motivating me...
Day 55, It's getting really tuff. I promessed to make it till day 90th though. My biggest task is to start keeping promesses.
Day 2 of 90, foggy morning, writing term paper, breaking into new habits, taking control of my life Sleep could be better but I got up early instead of just lying in bed waiting on urges to pass which is really stupid-_-. Getting right up is the best course of action since you don't give your body a chance to get comfortable with the urges, movement = progress/Stagnation = more likely to fall into traps of your own desire. Have a good day
22/90 1/90 no cigarettes Something interesting happened, which feels like I relapsed. I went to a furniture store yesterday and spent 2 hours in there, getting shown around by a saleswoman. She was beautiful, and I'm assuming that she feels lonely because she has recently gone through a divorce. She showed me around and we were laughing and connecting, and it was delightful. But my guilt set in when I left because I'm married. I felt like I have emotionally connected with this other woman, to the point that it felt like we had sex. Maybe I'm just really sensitive to the movement of my heart after 3 weeks of no PM. It could also be that my wife and I have hardly seen each other because of our work schedules. I can feel a new yearning for female attention: I reached out to a female AP, I have helped a very poor thai woman that I felt bad for, and now this. Thoughts/suggestions?
You are in at the peak in your cycle of hormones through the month. That doesn't mean you're a girl, but it does mean that you need to be more strategic and diligent for the next week.
