Date started: Jan 25, 2019 Day 153/156 no PM (relapsed day 51, 70, 102) Day 54/90 consecutive no PM Day 156 no alcohol or caffeine Day 38 of weight training - feeling good as I finally had a good night sleep even though I peed 3 times in the night - last few days of vacation, I am feeling strong resolve still - stay strong fellas
Day 36. From last fall until this past spring I went without pmo for 214 days. That was my longest streak and it ended after I unexpectedly witnessed something very sexually arousing and kept picturing it in my mind over the next few days until I gave in to the urge. I've had to start over 2 or 3 times since then, and maybe I'm headed into another long streak now. We'll see. I used to think I could leave this addiction behind for good. Now I'm not so sure, but I've been able to go months at a time without PMO if I stay focused. If I can keep that pattern going, it will be a lot better life than I used to have.
I relapsed today and yesterday but I know my mistake. I should not stay alone with the computer in my room and I did so results is obvious. The biggest problem for me I do not know how to spent time at home because this is a habit when I came home from work after eating sth, I take my laptop and go to my room to watch sth. Fuckkk I really do not know what to put instead of this habit. Day 0/90.
Day 19/90 check in. I'm starting to feel it will be a question of time until i relapse. It makes me aware of how vulnerable we are. Imprisioned in a emotional slavery attached to a screen wishing to live a experience to confort our sufering/ loneliness, just to realize afterwards that we only have engaged to prepetuate our sufering/ loneliness. And after years and years of repeating it when we want to stop we realise there is a monster who has been fed and problably will take the same time until he starves to death. I am fighting with this monster for 9 years now. I am glad i discovered nofap community to realize that there are so many others like me in this fight. But this does not make me happy. Only makes me aware of the suffering i pass reflected in so many others. I wander, it is really possible to stop this forever while living in society? Because i feel i would only calm down this monster im 2 ways: either living in a solitary place in permenant retreat or living in a harem filled will horny porny girls just for me to saciate my libido time after time.
I would sujest stay out of home. Find as maximum activities, events or whatever you like in order to be out of the pattern you've created at home.
Day 15 There are some red letter days in your life.yesterday was one for me . I lost everything , literally I was demoted . But it's time to get up and live your life again and be successful. One day at a time and one urge at a time. All the best guys
Day 0/90 relapsed.the whole day I kept relapsing multiple times. It's real bad and I am feeling tired from the moment of yesterday's relapse.
I am in and I am going to achieve it this time, Everyone please hold me accountable for my word. I hold myself accountable for it. I am giving up PMO completely for my girlfriend and I dont want her to feel that I am a two-timing bastard ever. I am blessed to have the woman in my life who loves me and accepts me the way I am and I dont want to lose her to anything. I will not. THE VOICE IN THE HEAD IS JUST CHATTER IT IS NOT US, NEXT TIME IT TELLS YOU TO RELAPSE TELL IT TO FUCK OFF! I want to love her daily more and more and after completing 90 days be completely rid of it for the rest of my life by following the 365 days structure. FUCK PORN AND MASTURBATION, I WANT MY LIFE BACK!, I WILL NOT LET MYSELF AND MY THOUGHTS GET IN THE WAY OF THAT. Day 0/90
Day 5, i can feel the sex rush started coming up as i feel horny. but i will not give up about this .This is my last trip of 90days challenge
relapsed.... but good thing is that i only did m. i didn’t watch p. another good thing is that i feel myself determined and reignited....... also totally it amounts to 36 relapses in 14 days, after a 14 day hard mode streak
I am participating in the 90 day challenge one day at at time. Since today is day 0, in 24 hours i will have 1 day. I am a PMO/MO addict. I wish to remain abstinent for the rest of my life. Thank you
