Day 34 One day at a time and one urge at a time. I can't afford to damage my body and mind anymore . Sorry to my past you were destroyed by the temptation demon inside my . But I won't let it happen again. We all can do it . All the best guys and have a nice day.
71/90 Finding this site is without doubt the best single event that has happened to my mental health in several decades. For the very first time in my life I have broken free from PMO since I was a young teenager. Before starting this journey I quit smoking. Then drinking. I also dont do any drugs either. Smoking. Drinking. Drugs. Porn are all bullshit coping mechanisms that I have used. They were all damaging. And to think no one is warned. Crazy? My best tools now are dicipline and purpose. Thank you to everyone on the forum as this is an amazing healing place.
big urge this morning. But I can think of pmoing during the school year and how much of a waste it was and how much time it took away from me. And I will remember that feeling the day before I relapsed how clear and happy I felt. I think it was similar the summer of 7th grade, then last year I was doing pmo a lot and felt like shit and my mind hazy and my d felt like crap and it would be great to be gone of it.
Day 7 1 year and one week ago, I made this account. I made it to get a new, better life. It was a very instructional year. Lots of fears, anxietys, sadness, loneliness, successess, unforgettable memories... And today? Today I asked a girl out and for the first time she said YES! I´m so happy and glad ^^. But also afraid of that something could destroy it. We will meet us this Sunday. I hope everything will be fine. I had two girlfriends, but in another country and it was a, well like one month relationship... But this here is something different. I feel it different. My mind is only focused on this pretty girl. And the hard one was the "preparing" phase of "how-can-i-ask-her-perfectly-out". Now we`re writing. I don`t like it to write, I prefer to talk with somebody on real life. I hope everything will be fine. I feel so excited, happy and afraid at the same time. I even eat very less beofre I met her. In this one year, I learned a lot. I`m thankful to God, to NoFap, and to YOU. YOU have accepted me here. YOU have helped me in my problems. I don`t know what to write. It`s been a year. If I didn`t made this acount one year ago, I would be probably be still a loser who watches porn in front of his screen INSTEAD to live my life! I hope everything will be fine...
Relapsed again I made a mistake of peeking and then it ends up being a relapse. I am not binging because it will make me more addicted. One relapse can destroy everything you build so far that's a lesson I learnt today. It doesn't matter if you do it one or more time it will cost you entire progress.
Even if you relapsed, you had some wins, for example the time where you didn`t watched porn. And that`s better than watch everyday like earlier!
Date started: Jan 25, 2019 Day 170/175 no PM (relapsed day 51, 70, 102, 150, 162) Day 73/90 meeting my goals in challenge Day 175 no alcohol or caffeine Day 47 of weight training - feeling awesome today, clear headed and strong willed to not PMO ... hope it lasts for my last 17 days - hopefully going for a biplane ride now if it doesn't rain or thunder before I get to the airport - have a great day everyone
Hello everyone, I'm really happy Challenge Completed I got 91 days 99 days clean A lot work... Thanks everyone for the great support here. Hope that all you can complete it too.
