Day 1 successfully completed. The PMO tracker is a real motivator. Was alone at home but was able to shrug off the craving. One day at a time.
Day 42 One day at a time and one urge at a time. All the best guys..hope that you All renew your confidence once again this weekend to give up this evil deed. Have a good day
Day 7/90, first week is almost down. I can not stress how much easier it is this time now that I have my pornblockers fully set up. Can't reach porn on my mac, my friend has the code for it. And the parental controls code I have set on my phone is somewhere deep in a drawer. I think I should hand that code to a friend also. I just have no way to easily reach porn now, which means I needn't worry about it. "Should I, shouldn't I?". Yesterday I had some urges, was home after a hard days work and I noticed my body wanting a fix. Instead of fighting the temptation the whole evening I just thought; "Well, there's no porn. So yeah". And done. I feel like I have a long, long way to go. I'm very glad I have the first week down. First step. No I feel my body wanting porn all the time. And how I "pornicate" women around me. I'll try to be mindfull of what's happening without the porn. Just observing myself. And I'll be very curious how this progresses
Having a tough day , family issues not sure what to do only thing comes in my mind is porn . Struggling very badly hope it passes
Had a relapse today. Tried hard but succumbed to it. Need to keep myself distracted. Restarting at Day 0.
Had a couple of falls. Back to 0. I am resensitizing. That's a good sign. Could be my diet too. It has drastically changed over the last couple of months. Whatever it is, I am headed in the right direction. I forgave my brother on the deepest level yet earlier today. My family sure treated me wrong. I was able to forgive my brother for his past trespasses against me. My mom still treats me terribly in a very passive aggressive way. I still need to be careful around her amd my other family members. I find the passive aggressive abuse just as bad if not worse than the outright. For instance. The other day. Talking with my mom. She said at the end that I should come down golfing one day. It was not a warm invite. It was not harshly giving me crap either. But I felt terrible for not making it out to the campground to golf with them this summer. It was a passive aggressive shaming tactic. My mother is a master of that. It is a form of manipulation. Make me feel bad to get me to comply. What a horrible thing to do. I do need to forgive her though. I do not know how. She has made me feel very small to get me to be obedient through my whole life. How do I forgive someone who has caused me that much pain?
so it seems, it popped on the suggestions. it´s from a tuber "nofap productions" maybe it has something to do with the site, i don´t know. anyway it´s a great one, thanks to whomever made it
