Day 11. Urges are hitting extremely hard. Porn blockers and will power are saving me right now. The struggle is worth it.
Day 12 Completed. Very tough day. But still very motivated and determined to beat this addiction. This streak is gonna be it! Stay strong all, we are going to beat this!
10 Go left Go left Go left righ left Cuz sometimes u feel weak & when u feel weak u feel u wanna just give up
3 days no PMO 0 days less sugar. 3 days no alcohol. 1 14 day and one 12 day streak. 55 days no Facebook. Prayed my chaplet of Divine Mercy. Prayed my litanies. Talks with God. Rosary. I woke up with an e this morning. That does not happen very often. Been months. It was months before that. I went years without that. I don't even remember getting e's outside of when I act out in a very long time. I am healing. Had a very early memory of my anxiety and depression this morning too. I wish I could pinpoint when it was to see what what going on in my life at the time. I guess this is maybe a need for control that I need to let go of. I was hanging out at my friend's house playing road hockey. I was being bullied by a new kid in town. I felt very low. I was thinking and feeling that my friend does not like me. I said to my friend "You don't even like me" and I ran home. That was part of my problem. I believed that nobody liked me. I always felt like such a loser. 3 days. Part of me wants to get excited and full of myself. Those lead to my downfall every time. I need to be grateful to God for my 3 days. I need to thank God for every day I am sober. I can't get full of myself. Humility, humility, humility.
Wait a minute it"s 11 I was wrong Im really astonished from my willpower Could never imagine i"ll start a streak Hope to climb the mountain to the top & never let u down guys
Day 13/90. First day of class was great. Grad school interview tomorrow. Minor relapse with partner (just O, no PM) but not a reset. Gonna try and finish out the rest full monk mode.
Back to day 0 after I looked at a torrent pop up ad for much longer than I should've...but it all wasn't for nothing because I didn't let it bring me to full PMO relapse (no M or O). Gonna start this new run again and i'm still feeling much stronger than I did when I started! Keep going guys!
37/90 I've noticed that the less I look at women in the street the less urges come. Have a good day everyone