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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by 2525, Oct 27, 2017.
Day 32 of 90. Have been in hospital most of past month which made it very easy, in fact no temptations whatsoever.
4 days no PMO. Lost count of all the other stuff. I am back on Facebook posting. It is different this time. I am not craving the little red notification dot. Just sharing fun things.
Feeling great with this 4 days. Confidence is almost back to what it was at my 11 day streak. Had 4 or 5 falls over a few days butgot back on track. Did not lose all the benefits and Iam almost back to where Iwas at 11 days. Had a very hard battle yesterday morning when I got off work. I wanted to act out so badly. I wanted the benefits of nofap more than acting out. In the midst of it all I remembered how I felt at my 11 days. Remembered how girls started showing signs of being attracted to me. I don't want that superficial PMO anymore. I can't use porn as a loving mother anymore. That is Mother Marys job now.
Have not been posting on here. Was just getting adjusted to life here in Fort McMurray. New job. Living in camp. I am finally getting into the flow of things up here. I like being in camp for work. You really make good friends. It is better this time too. I am connecting with people more than ever.
It feels really good to be part of something. Got a job with the union. That feels great. Gives me a sense or belonging. I used to feel ashamed of those feelings. Like most of the other ones I guess.
I am not going to get my computer back until I have 90 days sobriety. I will never get over PMO if I have it hooked up to the internet
75/90....15 days to go!
On route on route no mercy.
'M' see your death coming
Day 39/90 checking in
Wednesday was day 30 of 90
Day 31 of 90 officially 1/3 done proud of how far I got but I have a lot further to get to
Day 0 completed
Day 1 starts good..
Am also in day 1..
One of the hardest thing you can do in this life is fighting yourself and stopping M. but I will do it this time.
One day at a time and one urge at a time. All the best guys!
Have a great day ahead
Wash out all bad thoughts from your mind and be happy.
Day 8 / 90
One week without PMO (7/90): feeling tired, i sleep too much and i've been with headaches for the last 2/3 days i don't know if it's the symptoms of pornaddiction withdrawl,hope it won't last that much anyway i made up my mind i'm going to continue till i get rid of it ! Good luck !
For myself that got some respect & dignity,Gary wilson, family that never matched together but still caring for each other, my BFF who is still severly damaged from Morphia.........
freinds suggested yesterday that i should CHILL & im DEBATING too much, i really took this advice into consideration, now im following a new rule
IF U CAN"T FIGHT, RUN.
NOTHIN COWARD HERE, IF U "VE FKN ILL MIND LIKE ME THAT NEVA GET TIRED, DON" T DEBATE A LOT, REALLY EXHAUSTING, IGNORE & DISTRACT *RUN*
NEW RULE, FOR LIL MORE CONTROL
somehow i still stood
I swear i dunno how
Every inch in my body really refuses to return back, my body really got sick of it
Except my BRAIN.
BUT I"LL WIN......
Today my family out
I can stay in front of my lap
I even went for shower "shower times r really challenging & stressing for me specially when touching it so i turned to cold one for 1st time & really works*
Damn I controlled every thing...
I can"t imagine man, previously i could fap 5 times in same situation
I"m proud of myself & that feeling didn"t occur in last 7 yrs after graduation
I"ll continue climbing, stay alert all time, not debating alot with neg thoughts