Day18/90. Had crazy urges yesterday. Was looking for subs on instagram and such. This makes everything only worse. Almost relapsed. Now that I'm well underway and I'm feeling good about myself, arrogance and complacency might kick in. I have to be careful...
I am feeling ashamed. After 11 days of success, I was at club with friends and lots of girls, dancing and drinking. I came home with tons of alcohols in my body and masturbate within maybe 10 sec. When I wake up in the morning I said: WHAT DID I DO!! and it was a super bad feeling. I hope that all the progress in my brain are not back to 0. I will live like a monk from now on till my brain reset.
of course you can turn your life around. brother, everything in life is a matter of wanting, badly, if you want it, you´ll get it, you´ll find a way. so learn with the fall and go again. study, prepare yourself, check your strategy, do whatever it takes. you only fail when you give up. go my brother, much love.
yep, that´s the problem of excessive drinking, it totally destroys one´s willpower, and after 11 days you´re still in the compulsive phase. so drunkness + compulsiveness = relapse. learn bro, and go again. you can do it
18 terrible days yesterday and sunday. on sunday my wife left the house early and i specifically told her to take the laptop battery with her. she forgot and left the battery in the house. i manage to resist the urge for some hours, but then i peak nudes for just a couple of seconds and that was enough to ruin my day . i rapidly became obsessed to watch again and didn´t do shit the rest of the day, i was a total zombie. at night i peaked some more seconds, and yesterday i peaked a lot, and i was very close to relapse. yesterday night i was burning with sexual urges and i almost crawl towards my wife for sex because i couln´t take it anymore. intercourse calmed the fire but in the end it didn´t feel right, it seemed i did it to please myself and not for really wanting to have sex. anyways i searched for ways to prevent hazards when the initial plan fails, and i found this very helpful video of doing a "triggers plan". it´s really clear and helpful. see it brothers, this might help in difficult times. sorry for my stumble, but living and learning. one more teaching added.
Thank u so much brother for your reply. Gives me the fuel to stand up again. This time I feel I have more power to control my urges. I feel that I am closer than ever to do it. question, listen to music slow down the progress ?
Brothers, this post will gives you the ultimate power to do it. https://www.reddit.com/r/NoFap/duplicates/1lkgo3/91_days_serious_ed_cured_mild_anxiety_and_mild/
