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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by 2525, Oct 27, 2017.
Checking in...12 days
hard day today. some work stress but worst than that, i found myself suddenly alone, with idle time and horny. my brain was pumping porn imagery a lot. i kept strong, no peaking, but i hesitate for a couple of minutes... got to recheck my motivation because this hesitation is already a warning sign.
Day 1 no PMO. I went and got my first full body massage the other day. I can't describe how good I feel. I was holding so much tension. I feel loose and I am standing up straighter. The pmo temptations are not so severe. I am not in as much physical pain all the time after Just one. My new friend I hired to cuddle does massage therapy. I am going to get one every week for the next while. Massages help with the touch hunger too. My body has been dying to be touched for all my life. Even as a small child. My family hugs each other but they suck. Lol 1 or two seconds and not close. There is a real fear of intimacy and affection in my family. I am changing that for myself. I think I tried pursuing affection from my family as a child but it was met with coldness. I have always craved affection and touch so much. (I am human). Lol by being rejected it I learned it was bad. It is not bad. It is important for well being. I am a deeply intimate person but I have always been ashamed of it and hid it. It is time to embrace it. I am pursuing girlfriends now with no feelings of shame. I don't feel bad for pursuing affection.
Checking in, 9 days.
So I relapsed. My Tinder interest in China 'broke up' with me. Apparently she only liked me she hoped that I can open an account with her financial firm. I didn't use p*** but still felt ashamed afterwards. It hurts but I hope I can come out of it stronger than before. I'll probably talk more about this on my journal. So it's 0/90. I'm preparing myself for the dreaded Chaser Effect
Today is my 2nd day in this journey cum challenge. Full of determination. Will be reading books and motivational videos. Still, 88 days to go...
Good job getting to day 20 bro. Your slaying it so keep strong!
I have counted three wet dreams during last week, at least at daytime it keeps me from relapsing.
Day 1 of 90 No PMO 08-10-2019
89 to go 0,01% reached
+10 days no O
Reset my counter yesterday because I read a porn story and touched myself the day before.
Started Challenges Jan 25, 2019
Relapsed 16/257 Days
Longest streaks 67 (2015) and 51 (2019)
Current Challenge 9/90
Day 81 weight training (3X/wk)
Day 22 reduced alcohol, caffeine and sweets
- still going strong with no urges, holy crap!
- enjoying a good visit with my mom
- your brother in this struggle
Keep checking in mate, I’m doing it too and it helps big time Helps keep our discipline...
We’re on the same amount mate, let’s keep it going!
You’re smashing it bro, keep it up!
Yeah wet dreams are a good thing...
You’re doing great man and keep it up with the no peaking, it’s just you’re brain trying to break you and will only do harm..