52 days my brothers i want to share some thoughts that came to mind today and i see brothers struggling with that also. the reboot is hard, we all know that. i have relapsed many many times since i´m the forum for the last 18/19 months. one thing i learn is to forget about doing "clean" streaks. the mind wants a perfect streak "never pmo again" "never peaking", "no hesitations", "no sexual thoughts indulge" etc etc, no stains in the streak so to say. i realize that addiction recovery doesn´t work that way. we got to be tolerant with ourselfs, i´m not condoning pmo behaviour in any way, i´m saying that it´s almost impossible to do an "all in" for the rest of our lifes without screwing up sometimes (or many times). what important is to learn to live in abstinence. if i pmo recently, i will learn with that mistake to it doesn´t happen again, that´s it. the reboot is not a race, it´s a endurance shift, a huge process of trial and error. so if you peak it´s not a relapse, it you caught yourself having nasty thoughts about some girl, that´s not a relapse, if you drop some sperm out of some weird experience, that´s not a relapse. even if you pmo one time and don´t binge it´s hardly a relapse and the benefits of nofap will continue. the important thing is to learn with that risky behaviour and manage it for it doesn´t happen again. learn and continue!!! don´t let the mathematical time challenge overcome the basic of the reboot, brothers: living happy . let´s go!!!
thankyou brother. i think we should more often post such messages to each other when someone share whats going on.they really help. thanks Sankofa.
Day 5 over. Idk i have this intuition that after 90 days i would be a transformed person. I am already feeling bit more confidence and not afraid to put myself out there in the world..Looking people in the eye more, talkng more confidently etc...all des small things...lets see. Even if i didnot do much today and yeaterday, but still I am feeling clean, not wasting my crucial energy...Lets go..
3/90 Very happy ...no urges because l started enjoying the journey. .. i know that it is for my good. I am able to concentrate on my work. Want to use all my talents effectively.. i know how badly my memory power and concentration and willpower affected by the PMO addiciction. Thank u jesus to helping me.. Only u can give beauty for this little ashes...
I'm trying to find a girl to start a relationship with, that's kind of hard because it's going to be my first time! Thank you bro, so this crying period will pass, let's get this done!!!
86/5400 Commitment, never lost a day without posting. I"ll never walk alone.... All that effort is dedicated to his soul May he R. I. P.....
Day 14: One week. Been up and down of hard and easy days. This was one of the hard ones. Getting a bit used to feeling this way. Let's keep at it! Onwards and upwards and restored.
Day- 11 , Checking In "Scars are not injuries, Tanner Sack. A scar is a healing. After injury, a scar is what makes you whole." BY- China Mieville
