[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

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RiseToGreatness said:
well, that´s a fine example how things escalade. it happened to me many times also brother. lesson nº 1: never peak, especially the curiosity peak, never do that. once you peak, the images will start drilling in the brain until you peak again... and again... and again. the obsession it will not stop. it will put you on your knees begging for more and it will stop when you relapse.

so try to see where you allowed yourself that first glance, what was happening? boredom? stress? hurt? manage that feelings in constructives way brother, it´s crucial that you develop those coping skills. let´s go!!!!
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Thank you brother! I will not stop fighting this addiction!
 
Luke777 said:
I must admit. I relapsed.
So today I am at home for almost the whole day.
I have a lot of stuff to do, but I was looking for something that I can enjoy, maybe a new episode of tv, maybe a new video from my favourite youtuber, but I can't find any.

6pm I was searching for normal movies but I clicked on the button that I must not click, found some rated movies and saw some nudes. I closed it and stop looking at it.

Later the day at 12am
Browsing again those rated movies, and this time clicked on the movie and started to watch. Watched some movie sex scenes.

Then I still did not masturbate, but the feeling of PMO was so so so strong.
Later at 2am I watched p and MO.
What to do when I have already watched some sex scenes? I just feel like if I watched, then I allow myself to PMO.

When I was searching for rated movies, or watching p, my mind is still clear at the moment, I know exactly what I am doing, BUT I can't hold myself. The rational me is not loud enough to stop me, I just give in like that.

I think this was again boredom and stress.
What I learned from this incident is the boredom and stress emotion can cause me to relapse.

Solution:
I need to write down a list of stuff to do whenever I meet such boredom and I must discipline myself following through.
I am going to write the list immediately after I post this, and stick it to the wall beside me and my desk so it will remind me all the time.
Usually, I am pretty busy so I can no PMO easily but like today when I have a lot of free time, I relapsed.

I feel really bad for relapsed. I know, it just for this moment, it is life, life has lots of ups and downs.
And I feel sorry to all of you for not making it to 90 days, I don't know what to say, I always say want to make it to 90 days, and it sounds good, but when I can't make it, I feel like shit, really.

Some words to encourage myself, I am changing my lifestyle, it's not 100% of no PMO yet but I managed to not do it for most of the time. I must get back up now. The inner demon inside me is still asking me to watch more, to indulge more. HOLY CRAP.
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Brother sad to hear this sad story
But

Your mind is the biggest battlefield be its commander and not its soldier control the mind steer your mind towards your vision, your dreams and your success. FIGHT as if tomorrow is the end. FIGHT until your opponent cannot stand. FIGHT hard until you reach your vision. FIGHT with determination FIGHT with commitment who the hell is going to stop you. FAILURE never fear the failure you are a WARRIOR not a PERVERT

I survived because the fire inside me is burning brighter than the fire around me when you want to achieve something you must be burning like the sun

No matter how hard is the past, no matter how hard you struggled you can always begin again brother fight for your dreams no one can stop you

All the best brother
No problem when there's a problem there is a way

Don't loose your determination and commitment
Don't hurt yourself and worry be in self defense and self discipline

Please don't peek into anything stay away from social media and explicit content

AND PLEASE DON'T PEEK AT ALL

Your brother in this struggle
 
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Current Challenge 4/90 (ends Feb 13)
Joined nofap Jan 25, 2019
269/295 Good Days (no relapse)
Longest streaks 67 then 51 (4 years later)
Day 93 weight training (3X/wk)
Day 30 reduced alcohol, caffeine and sugar
- felt some urges last night as a result of a verbal scrap with the wife over nothing as she is pre menopausal and highly emotional right now
- I realize PMO is my way of self medicating my negative emotions after a scrap as well as saying fuck you to her
- not a good pattern which needs to change and I am working on it
- first scrap in about 4 months so things have improved a lot since I got off of this dopamine roller coaster called PMO
- your brother in this struggle
 
11 Days in the books. Not been a problem thus far as I have tried to keep myself busy and been around one of my friend. and the commitment to the 90 day goal. Trying to incorporate some new habits like reducing weight. will be joining gym from tomorrow. I am overweight by 20 kg, which is very unhealthy, so that will be my priority for the next 3 months. Also, I want to read some good books and will be incorporating that. Stay Strong guys. Much love. One mental hack which is helping me is that I am not waiting for day 90 to become a transformed man. I am not waiting for next day to finish. I am just letting it all go and just focusing on my present. Time will pass, it cannot be stopped. So trying to be productive and happy.
 
Abc833 said:
Hello folks, today was a great day. My skin is really clearing up. I hit a new PR in the weight room. A project I’m working on at work went great today. I usually worry myself to death over things like this project. First the first time ever I’m seeing how I can let go of the worrying. Such exciting times folks. I had you all had a great day as well. Stay strong everyone.
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Still just cruising along folks. Porn is long gone. Lust comes here and there but the women I desire seem to vibrate at a much higher level. I notice when I see IG “models” I no longer desire them I end up deleting them. My sleep is terrible now but I’ll get over that. Overall all is well and I’m looking forward to the big 30. Have a great weekend.
 
Day 64 / 90
Moving ever forward. Busy times for me and don't have the energy in the little spare time I have to post much. Still committed. Still meditating daily. Had to take a break from training due to damaging a muscle but stepping up my cardio work. More sexual thoughts recently but observing and not letting them grow into anything bigger. Keep learning, keep fighting. Onward brothers and sisters.
 
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