I relapsed I watched a trailer on youtube that urged me to relapse and I did. I feel the difficulties in doing this but I understand what I am going through. Changes can bring defeats. Starting from Day 1 again from tomorrow! Hopefully I can be stronger this time!
Sorry to hear that, bro, but glad you're back on track. Late alone at night kind of also reminds me of my schooldays, with the parents gone and me doing whatever came to my head. Not great times though. I was also switching channels yesterday, out of boredom, and had to rush through the music channels because most music videos are now as close to softcore porn as they can get. Gotta be careful around what used to be normal. So I had to stop flipping through the channels as well, since something tempting was coming up every 5-7 channels, hahaha. But seriously, boredom is killer, and modern media is so sexualized it's really hard to avoid the stuff. At least you don't get that sort of thing on the radio.
Hey, going great, Kingfisher. Somehow seeing your counter and your avatar has turned into a great positive trigger — an encouragement in and of itself, hahaha. Day 44, checking in, by the way. Keep up the good fight, brothers. Even when I see some bros here slip up, I'm glad they return to the forum and start again. We've all been there. Someday we will be free, and that day is not too far.
20 minutes away from 14 days in I was reading a novel these last few days that contained some scenes that really turned me on, even though it was all postmodern and meta and really not written to turn anyone on per se. But I managed not to act on it. Now I have to let those scenes slide out of my system again, which experience has taught me is one of the hardest things for me. Any tips on this kind of thing from anyone?
Cmon. Cmon. Cmon. Just relapsed 36 days streak. I just couldn’t control myself. I don’t know what to do.
Just start over. One small relapse doesn't mean anything. Whatever you do, don't binge! Just get right back on the saddle.
