02/90
well i'm almost finishing second day... i have to say that this day was pretty different from others in my daily life. I usually get up, do my stuff... and then i take a break and... masturbate. today i was very busy playing guitar, i practiced like 6 hours today, so i didn't have time to masturbate. i noticed a few things: i was looking into a fit girl instagram to get excited, didn't get an erection or touched, just looked at it for a few minutes and then decided to get up and keep my day. and the other thing is that i was on the street and felt very attracted to some girls, i was not being obvious but i looked them and i saw their ass. again i felt a little bit excited but i passed the moment and that was all. i think today i felt the need of masturbation because i'm very used to get my anxiety down when i masturbate, then i feel worse but everytime i feel bad or nervous i masturbate. this day was pretty hard on overthinking negative ideas about my past mistakes in relationships with girls, or other mistakes, also thinking about what i'll do with my life in some years, etc. i just tried to forget those boomerang thoughts when i was playing guitar and it worked i think. i have to say that my abstinence syndrome shows itself as a depressive, fateful mood with overthinking ideas. i'm positive about this and i think it's gonna pass and get better with some time. i'll also be losing my social phobia. thanks, i'm motivated and i'm starting again this journey.