If theres one thing that I can recommend its to not let yourself be brought down by edging and shit. Im currently at day 59 but at day 13 I looked at porn briefly. Instead of resetting, Im going to wait until day 90, then reset back to 77. It helps drive you forward when you see how far youve come. Ive been at this challenge for like 3 years and keep failing and there have been a lot of times where I think to myself, oh i just cheated so I might as well actually watch porn since I have to reset anyway. But that leads to a bad spiral. Try not to look at it like that and instead congratulate yourself for not ejaculating and holding out. For me, I changed the challenge this time around so that I can masturbate all I want but just make sure never to look at porn. Then once I hit 90 I can take the next step. Keep it up and stay strong and adapt to the challenge to do whatever it takes to improve
I would say porn is the biggest problem. There's nothing wrong with occasional masturbation per se. In the end, though, it all depends on why you do it. But there's really nothing positive about porn.
Day 3 since my last short relapse. It's been over 2.5 months since I spend longer than 15 minutes searching for stimulating material and edging. I just had about 4 relapses in that period, which were 3 instances where I peeked at some material that I remembered from the past and touched myself a little for about 10-15 minutes, and 1 time M without P. So I'm really proud of my progress! I haven't reached the level of renunciation that I want to get at yet, which is why I reset my counter 2 days ago, but I'm definitely on the right track. I'm getting better and better in remembering that when I'm starting to crazy and want to reach for distractions - porn or otherwise - I just have to take a deep breath and do nothing. Everytime I do that, the urge just slowly goes away and I'm fine again. In the weeks before my reset, I forgot a few times, but I know what to do again now.
Day 0 After several relapses, on the first day on this forum, I start this challenge hoping to finally achieve freedom from this addiction. Wish me luck, my friends!
Jesus Christ. 4 hours after I write this, I have the worst relapse since, indeed, 2.5 months. Pfff. Pride comes before the fall, I guess. Starting over, for real this time.
Goddammit. I've been in a very tricky and almost hidden downward spiral since December: on a day to day level I feel I'm getting more confident and mindful, but then I have these small moments where I slip, and they slowly get more frequent and more intense. In December it was mostly just remembering scenes and concepts from the P I used to watch and read, now the last two weeks I find myself peeking for 10 minutes here and there. And then just when I thought I had it under control, I find myself clicking on something today and unable to stop for an hour and a half. Almost out of nowhere. I know this spiraling very well from the past: I would be on a streak of 3 or 4 weeks, and then this spiral would kick in and it would slowly but surely take me back to doing PM 3, 4 times a week, before I would get to the point where I was so sick of it that I found my determination again. So, this time I managed a streak of 2.5 months, which is great. But I don't want to go through the whole process of slipping back fully again. I need to avoid binging whatever I do. So please, guys, send me some encouragement and advice to get out of here and get back on track for real.
Day 8/90 No PM (ends April 8) Day 357 on this challenge Day 122 weight training (M, W, F) Day 17 No alcohol Day 14 No desserts Day 15 No caffeinated coffee
11/90... Well, I keep going cold turkey. Trying to read your post, guys, every day. Really helpful. Also Gary Wilson's book very inspiring to quit this funny behaviour of mine. Less brain fog. More clarity in my head. It works and it's only eleven days past. Good luck everyone!