Day 1 again. Last night in the middle of the night I couldn’t resist an urge to reread an erotic story I used to spend a lot of time with. Managed to snap out of it after 15 mins, but now it keeps popping up in my memory. Which is a good reminder of the way these things mess with your mind. I’ve been having mysteriously low iron levels and minor anemia for a month and a half now and feeling weak and tired, this week even more than before. And with all my recent small failures on top of that, I feel my resolve and discipline is wearing off. Which is not the direction I wanna keep going in. I’m going to see a specialist on the anemia thing, but I need to stay away from the internet as much as possible in the meantime.