Day 3. Tonight I'll do some stretching exercises, then a half hour of meditation, then some reading and a good night's sleep. Have good weekend all.
Dude, some awesome insights. Congrats on making the 90-day achievement, and gaining much wisdom and perspective along the way.
Day 0/90 1 March 2020, 09:24AM ( New Delhi, Indian standard Time) and for comparison 29 Feb 2020, 22:55 (New York Time) Attempting this challenge on a thread for the first time. Age 31 years and next month I will be 32 years. Years of p use 10-11 years( because I didnt have internet and a laptop/smartphone in hostel and when I lived 2-3 years on a costal town(jobless surviving on 215$ a month) (5-15 pmo per week on average) Nofap member since mid 2018. Highest streak no pmo - 87 days and its the only streak no pmo which is above 20-30 days. Current counter day 8 no pmo.
@RiseToGreatness Congratulations man!!! I read your whole first post! It was very comforting to know and your beginnings of porn addiction are so similar to mine I am 31 but kind of had the same experience! I will definitely read your second post when I have time today! Keep going and your life is only going to get better with each day! Looking forward to my own success story soon!
Okay guys being fully honest with myself I'm resetting my counter. Haven't 'finished' but looked at psubs and edged. Day 0!
Day 38 A message from a fellow fapstronaut: Focusing Too Much On NOT Watching Porn Guess what? If you’re thinking about not watching porn, you’re thinking about porn. As long as porn is in your mind, you will have a lot of trouble letting it go. The correct approach is to just forget about it. Stop obsessing about what day you’re on. Stop posting on your journal stuff like “Omg quitting porn is so difficult, the urges are so strong!” Stop hanging out too much on this forum. Just forget about porn. Disregard it as an option in your life. Focus your mind on the stuff that matters. Your family, your dreams, your health, your career. When urges arise, watch them mindfully. Observe them. Do not react. Do not suppress them. Do not push them away. Just kindly smile and focus your mind on something else. Watching porn is not an option. It’s not a part of your life anymore. It’s a thing of the past.
Day 0, I relapsed during the night. I withstood all challenges that came up until day 21 I shifted the urges but this night, it was unbearable. I couldn't sleep and honestly I was resisting like during for 4 to 5 hours. Shifting sexual thoughts, shifting my attention, trying to sleep. But it got worse and worse until the cravings were so strong it felt like I was going to vomit. It was around 4 - 5 am in the morning I started feeling like I was getting sick and feeling like absolute shit, I had like weird thoughts about dragons and witches or something, I was completely tripping. I admit, I slacked off with the discipline to go to bed early. Also I ate dinner at 10pm this time, as I forgot to eat dinner in time. Then there was my neighbors (who are mostly old people who have hearing problems), watching tv with volume cranked up during the whole night. I tried turning on the ventilator to muffle the sound this time, but the ventilator is very loud and I still couldn't sleep. It kinda irritated me. And I was feeling horrible, unbearable cravings. The cravings didn't go away. At around 4-5am I started touching myself to see if it goes away. It went away a bit, but it came back. (obviously this is not something that I should have done and I have a better plan for this new streak) Then it was around 9am and I was like, eager to watch P and Orgasm, however at the same time I felt like I was going to get a panic attack if I did that, because I felt extremely anxious. Then at some point I relapsed full blown...yes, and I slided really bad, I know it was very wrong. I could have just M and O but I wanted the whole deal. However it happened and now it's done. The tension is gone and I don't have to continue. I didn't see any other solution at that time, because I wasn't very well prepared for the night issues. But I have something now that I didn't have before. The notion that I can live without PMO. So I took a shower and had all those sexual thoughts that usually come up after a relapse. They would usually make me watch Porn again, as it is easier to keep watching when you did it already. However, this time they absolutely didn't, because I am more determined than ever to live a life without PMO. And I know that it is possible, because I got this far and I did 30days once before. And the only thing that really beat me was a whole sleepless night with cravings that didn't go away. Well, so many things I can do to get over this. Either "A": I exercise regularly, eat dinner at max 7pm , go to sleep at around 9:30pm or 10pm and take the non-prescription drug regularly and see if it works consistently. Also I am going to buy headphone for sleep and some kind of mp3 player (probably smartphone) to listen to white noise, because my pc makes too much noise. in Emergency situation, I just watch Netflix during the whole night, and I should probably just have done that today. Or "B" : Do the above, except take prescription drug for sleeping, until I am over the 90 days. The nights and my sleep are my biggest problem. Tomorrow is the official opening date of my gym. Here we go again. This time I went until 21 Days. Now I want to crack the 30 days and go beyond. Much blessings. Let's stay strong!
Checking in day 4, thanks for sharing your thoughts fellas, it really helps me to feel I'm not alone in this
Day 6 of this streak, in which my focus lies on increasing self-love and thus eliminating the need to do PMO. I joined this forum on November the 5th, so 117 days ago. Of those 117 days, I did 108 days without PMO, and 9 resets.
Congratulations, man, you're an example to us all! There's a lot of good advices in here. I for one should start with daily reading my reasons why I'm quitting porn. And I'm starting an extra counter indicating my progress so far. A lot to unpack in your post, thanks a lot for that.
