[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 5 No M,
Day 75 No P

Yesss ))

 

Day 1

 

Turns out, the way things look right now, that I might be losing my best friend as she's about to start dating a guy she knows and naturally we're going to drift apart to make room for him.
The kicker as well is that I only realized I have feelings for her after 3 years of her being interested in me now that she's decided she'd rather be with somebody else. Guess it just goes to show you that you don't really know what you have until you lose it.
Add that all up and you get a depressive spell that saps my will to fight urges at all. At least for a few minutes, I can pretend I'm not lonely, you know?

But I can't really afford to stay down here forever. Let's see if we can build a new streak from the ashes of this one.

Day 0.

 

Day 3/90
Focus on building new habits

 

I am 5 days off PMO.

This is my second 3rd challenge.
The first one I completed 100%.

 

Day 7 of this streak, in which my focus is to increase self love and thus eliminate the reasons for PM.
I joined this forum 129 days ago. Of those 129 days, I was 119 days without PM.

 

At the start it's short cause your not aware. But with time you start noticing things that your doing during the day. And you get amused by them. You start trying new things go see which other abilities you have. From the way you speak, to your actions, thoughts, treat people, your hygiene, dreams, way of life, desires, confidence. There is so much your eyes start to open up to which at first you weren't aware of.

 

At the start it's short cause your not aware. But with time you start noticing things that your doing during the day. And you get amused by them. You start trying new things go see which other abilities you have. From the way you speak, to your actions, thoughts, treat people, your hygiene, dreams, way of life, desires, confidence. There is so much your eyes start to open up to which at first you weren't aware of.

 

Day 32.
Nofap is really helping me. Cause of recent I have noticed I have never given myself time to focus on me to understand myself.
Cause I started doing PMO when I was 15yrs now am 22yrs. I never went through the proper stages of growth dealing with self discovery and understanding. I was always depressed. Running after girls driven by my urges and sexual desires. Every time I was stressed and frustrated I would relapse. So I got used to that and my whole life, I only knew hatred and sadness.
Until I started nofap. Now am on day 32. The longest I have gone so far in my attempts to recover. When I was about to reach day 30. I was scared cause I noticed my whole life was rotating around PMO.
I was worried cause I was uncertain of what life would be with out PMO. Cause I had got used to blaming PMO for every failure I had in my life. And that was my cycle. I would blame PMO for everything then get frustrated and do PMO.
Infact even after reaching 30days, I got some failures and this time I was responsible for them, which felt unnatural and very uncomfortable since I was use to blaming PMO.

Since I started writing my positive traits down. I started noticing a whole new world, every thing feel like a new experience,r from my confidence, to the way am behaving, the way I feel, am more aware of everything around me and more aware of myself
I always thought that by being in a relationship I would experience happiness, that I would be happy, which led me down a road of chasing girls and multiple rejections which in turn caused me to do PMO again. That was my cycle.

Since am starting to see the benefits of nofap and expreincing a new life. I am committed never to relapse ever again.
I shall be mindful of sexual urges and will let them fade away.
So starting today I will focus only on my self. Try to get happiness and satisfaction from my actions.. will be counting the days with my challenge

Day 32 nofap
Day 0 Building self confidence

 

I'm on day 0

 

This is so great! Keep it up, man! We’re all rooting for you.

 

Day 4 done!

 

27/90

 

Day 5. Feeling stressed, but who isn't lol? Let's just do what we need to, to get through another day. "Tomorrow's wind will blow tomorrow."

 

Sorry to hear this story, bro. I feel for you since I have been in similar situations. I hope your depression doesn't last long and you keep busy and don't wallow in self pity. Use this time alone to build on yourself identity, confidence, etc. and learning how to conquer your PMO demons.

 

Day 0 done, day 1 going on

 

Day 51 Days are going slow now, there are so many benefits so far, but there are also withdrawal effects.

 

Day 6 No M,
Day 76 No P

Excited to hit my 90 days original goal, even tho it's going to be only no P, but the no PM counter will hit 90 as well this time! I will make sure of it!
Again want to express my hapiness of finding this place and all the things you guys share! I really believe we are helping eachother! I want to encourage you to talk to your actual real life friends/family about this, even if it is very uncomfortable.
It will really help lift a lot of weight from you!!! It will make you more accountable and will make the problem stop growing as it will be out in the light! I have told my fitness coach, my closest friends and my MOM! I am 30 years old! If I can, you can! For the younger guys out there - teens or twenties - it is going to be even easier telling your parents, believe me they are used to hearing a lot of shit about teenage lifestyles nowadays and porn will not shock them a bit (most parents anyway, everyone can be different). Parents want to help, even if it is only morally!

 

Day 2

 

Day 8 of this streak, in which my focus is to increase self love and thus eliminate the reasons for PM.
I joined this forum 130 days ago. Of those 130 days, I was 120 days without PM.