Day 2 and I relapsed again. Ok, I noticed I haven't been writing alot. This time like the last times, I relapsed mostly because, right now I feel that I am going nowhere. I am programming my videogame, however it is not an end goal in itself. I still have very much to learn. I feel like I need to create an environment in my room, that actually reminds me of my purpose. Like a meditation dojo or something like that, I just don't know how, there's just too much bullshit lying around, which I can't organize 100% lol. hmm. I think I need to fall in love with discipline. I will watch a video on that and study it as best as I can tomorrow, because I need to go to sleep now. Having this posted serves as I reminder for me I hope. All the best to you guys, I will try writing more tomorrow. Much love and blessings!
75 days. Feeling some urges, but nothing I can't control. 15 days to complete the challenge, the interest for porn has diminished considerably. I'm not feeling any "superpower", but my confidence and social anxiety have improved a lot. To those struggling with the first days, keep going. I relapsed once before I reach this current streak. Things are gonna get better.
Day 13 No M, (Yesterday was a typo 121 it was meant to be just 12 ) Day 94 No P! Have an awesome day/afternoon/evening guys!
Day 15 of this streak. No more P, no more peeking. Instead I'm increasing confidence and self-love. I built this reality, now I will build a better one. I joined this forum 149 days ago. Of those 149 days, I was 137 days without PM.
I just realised something: this whole Covid-19 madness is hard, but for me in my NoFap journey, in a way it's actually a blessing in disguise. Yes, it makes it harder not to give in to my urges, and my urges seem more present than they've been in a while, so I spend much more time over here than I used to (and maybe should) to distract me from those urges... But for me, this whole thing has also spiked my drive to stay strong. Because I know, with all the working from home and all the stress, if I would give in to my urges now, there'd be no stopping. I'm all alone behind my computer for the most part of the day everyday now, so if I slack a bit, I would relapse so bad, and I'd be in such a bad state in no time. Just the thought of that makes me so much more determined not to slack at all. This is the time for us to grow, to get to know ourselves and to find our inner calm. Let's do it!
Yesterday evening I had an accident with my bike. Because of that I forgot to update. Anyway: Day 9 & 10
