Yes, this is familiar to all of us. I agree with what @Timothy_James said: you need to invest more in an idea where you want to be when you get rid of your addiction and how it will look there. Plus, I think you should think about a way to make the choice to look at P or things related to that into a more conscious choice. Right now, you look at that stuff out of habit, and your conscious brain wants to stop doing that, but you do it anyway because that's just what you're used to doing. I have found that taking a break everytime before I act on an urge - to write it down, or to look out the window for a second, or other techniques you can think of - creates time for your consciousness to kick in and to think about if you really want to do it or not.
I very much agree with @Timothy_James response; you need something to fill the hole that is created by cutting out PMO. Do you have a vision of what you want to do and who you want to be? What do you need to do to get there? (in addition to cutting out PMO) Also, more practical in the short term is to make a list of simple, healthy alternatives to PMO when you get urges. Things like meditation, light exercise, reading.. or a creative hobby like making music, writing, drawing etc.
Day 7/90. Accomplished the first thing on my lingering "to do" list and I feel great turning my motivation into productivity! Still some parts of the day where I felt a little down, but not as often as a week ago! My general emotion throughout is not so negative and not as many mood swings!
Day 25/90 No PM with NO peeking Day 475 at attempting this challenge Day 169 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: No caffeine or alcohol and reduced desserts
I strongly agree with you. Over time I have come to start accepting reality for what it's is. All the ideas and beliefs I had have changed from the first hand experiences of the world. If over time am becoming stronger and started to work with what the world throws at me. Instead of complaining why things are the way they are. I instead focus on changing those I can and letting those I can't be. Get advice I really appreciate it
I used to hate everything about me. Seeing myself as worthless. I spent so much time trying to add a few things to myself to feel better about me. And I forgot to look at the things I was good at. And every time I tried and failed I would get so depressed and disappointed and that's when the urges would hit and I would end up PMO. But now am very aware of myself. One of the things I get my strength from are my goals and my ambitions. Cause I know if I keep doing PMO I would mess up my future. And I have lost so many things due to porn. It's time I regain control over my life
