On day 37 Like i said yesterday, i am in a bad mood. Today i had edging at sexy models on Instagram, even though i rarely visit Instagram. I think the reason was that i was fantasizing an extremely beautiful girl from gym. But thats the problem. I barely talked to her, only for gym stuff, nothing serious. I could press the situation, i didnt and afterwards i had thoughts and was fantasizing her. I had an opportunity to talk to a "real" girl that liked a lot, i didn't talk and instead after i went to see the fake models. I don't like my behaviour hahahah. I think i took my lesson. It was my second edging through this streak, but i decided not to reset because i think the lesson is valuable for the continue. I will try to be more confident at the next opportunities! Good luck!!
BTW I see the link in my previous post with this '****religious content****' filter that I've seen a few times already - in fact, I think somebody in this exact thread recommended that same site to me a while back and I had trouble finding it because of that filter. Is that something that I see because I have a setting somewhere? Is all supposedly religious content blocked on this site for everybody? What's up with that?
Yes! I found his writing extremely helpful. I think the major thing I walked away with was that the issues we have in our sexual relationships and even the TYPES of porn or other sexual stimulus we gravitate towards aren't just RANDOM or simply genetic coding (although I'm sure some of it is influenced by genetics). Rather, much (not all) of our sexual preferences (and I'm talking about the details and specifics here) are shaped by the experiences we had as children and the emotional environments we grew up in. In other words, you can really learn a lot about yourself by studying and understanding your sexual behavior. This is really helpful because it can point you to issues you've had since childhood that may need some healing or changing the way you think. It actually also helped validate some of my sexual preferences (by helping me understand why I like certain things), which in turn helped me get rid of a ton of SHAME over those preferences. Anyway, I wish you all the best on this journey of self-discovery! You are a good person. You may need to correct your thinking in some areas and you may need to dig deep to find those things, but you are not so broken that you can't be straightened out. Keep going!
@Merry Terry First, let me start by saying thank you Thank you for reading my posts. Thank you for caring and expressing your honest thoughts. Most importantly, thank you for for being active on this forum and supporting other men in the pursuit of sexual freedom & health. I understand your perspective. You brought up a few very important points that I think are worth delving into a bit deeper. There’s definitely a distinction between our desires and temptations. I think it’s also important to note that a person’s mindset, beliefs (subconscious & conscious), and worldview may directly affect the way he/she perceives themselves, others, and the world they live in. Because I’ve spent the last 10-15 years engaged in dysfunctional sexual behaviors and patterns, my brain and thinking may very well be totally warped. Years of self destructive behavior, poor coping skills, and using PMO as a way to escape other abstract and complex issues have reinforced poor thinking, especially towards women! I’ve basically conditioned my brain to treat women as objects used strictly for the purpose of self pleasure. A means to getting a fix or a high when I experience certain emotions. A way to release tension. That’s what happens when we watch P, we turn women into objects to either help us escape problems or as tools to feel pleasure. I’m still learning, adopting, and experiencing new beliefs and ways of viewing and interacting with women. I agree with you that each of us needs to learn how to manage and control our own desires. It’s not an easy task. More to come on this...
Day 14/30 No PM (June) Day 507 at attempting this challenge Day 182 weigh training (M, W, F) Day 2 Jogging (Tues &Thurs) Day 52: No caffeine and no alcohol Lifestyle: reduced desserts Going on a 4 day road trip with no wifi or cell reception so may not be able to post for a while. Will catch up on this challenge as soon as I am able. Good luck with your journeys brothers.
Day 28 yo. You know when 4 years back... I use to see one or two maximum on big streaks. But now I see a changes ...I see more people trying...more people big streaks... Now I can see people reaching 90. Back then it isn't much. The thing is with more people reaching bigger goals..it gives hope .. motivation..
58 & 59 & 60 days, 1.440 hours of the rest of my life Still going. 2/3 of the way. Only 5 more days to beat my longest streak. As little screen time as possible is working.
