[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 76/90

 

Yes, you're saying very honest and powerful things here. PMO addiction is very much linked to a very warped way of thinking of women. I myself was always afraid of women - and to a certain extent I still am - and this has lead to so much unhealthy patterns and harmful behaviors, for example thinking that it's task of the women that I liked to validate my existence by loving me back and resentments when they didn't. A big part of unaddicting ourselves is facing these things and untangling our harmful thinking and developing compassion for our fellow human beings.

 

Thank you so much for these words!

 

We're in this together. You've got this!

 

Day 1. I joined this forum 225 days ago. Of those 225 days, I was 199 days without M’ing to P.

 

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Great that you have found a method that works for you...

 

Day 32 completed guys 58 days more for 90 days

 

5/90 I'm starting to have bad cravings and flashbacks, but I'm not giving up. Just have to focus on something else.

 

31/90. Hit 30 days yesterday! woot woot! This next week will be my hardest week yet.

 

Why that?

 

Day 55!

 

Day 0.

 

Friends/brothers,

I am sorry to report that I relapsed twice in the last 24 hours. I am so ashamed for letting you and myself down. There are a few things I will take away from this....
1. I did make it 32 days, which is a good start for me.
2. I felt so good (overall, comparitively) on those 32 days that I know for sure that this is the life I want to live- free of addiction to porn and masturbation. A life where I am in charge of myself.
3. This can be done. If I can do 32 days then I can do 64, 128, 256, 512, etc...

Don't give in, keep up the fight, I am getting back up with you!

 

Not sure why my day counter still shows 32 days...I did change it...

 

Another messy morning. Some things I watched yesterday were still in my mind and I searched for some related things. And then it turned out I accidentally made a fricking bookmark yesterday and I clicked on it.

I even managed to forget the 7 year anniversary with my girlfriend yesterday. I feel like I'm really stuck deep in the mud. I have to get out of here and do it fast.

 

Man today was a difficult day. Got some extreme urges this afternoon. Keep going guys!

 

Hey guys,

I relapsed last night, after 37 days. Edging and then nudes and MO.
It was my longest streak ever. The relapse is due to my bad mood the last days. My problems were that i have thoughts about my future studies but i have low self confidence and that i was thinking constantly how much i have failed approaching girls (almost 24 and virgin). These negative thoughts destroyed me, i am very stressed, have fatigue and brain fog. I felt very tired. They drove me to relapse. I am the type of the guy that used to relax his anxiety through pmo. That's very bad. That isn't the solution to our problems or a helpful way to face our thoughts.

I am very disappointed that i have to reset my counter. But i care more about my self improvement. I think that i made progress and i want to change more my mindset. So i begin immediately my new streak and i am going to be very concentrated at the first days so i wont go to my old daily habits. I appreciate my existing progress and believe that this relapse doesn't tottaly annihilate it. But i can do better and i have to work on my mindset. I will start journaling for sure because some days am lost on my thoughts. To conclude I understood my false and now i have only to focus on my new start.

Keep strong guys, there are awesome efforts in this team!!

 

Day 65 No M
Day 170 No P

Was really busy day so missed the motivation video post today. Will be back with one tomorrow! Have a great rest of the day guys!!!

 

Day 7.

 

Day 9. Why for god's sake is that woman there in the embedded YouTube video on the top of the NoFap homepage. Do it away!!!