1/eternity So...relapsed yesterday night: sexting set me up. No P just M and not repeatedly, did it once. Made me sad and a bit depressed right afterwards, felt like I not let myself down but all of you guys who struggle with this crap aswell. Guess I am that frekkin codependent still. Nevertheless today I went grocery shopping for 1000 kronor - never bought that much, all healthy basically - for me and my cats then read the brilliant "No more Mr. nice guy" book buy Dr. Robert Glover. I strongly recommend this book for every guy born and raised in western society's: it is BS what they feed boys and do to them these days, not only emasculate them also set them up for a bloody miserable, lonely life where they reach no where near their full potential. Well that shit ends here and now!
I'm in day 5. I was watching videos on the destructiveness of porn and I see it as a very sick and evil industry. I intend to do better than I've done in the past. I want to be free of it for good and develop a healthy sexuality or healthy celibicy. One day at a time.
Thats a losing way to think.A statement like that sounds like your setting yourself up with an excuse for relapse. Change the weak words you're telling yourself and make it thru the day. You can do it.
Hey this challenge page number is the same as the year 2020. Who woulda think it? Must be good luck. Day 11/90 Day 568 at attempting this challenge Day 195 weigh training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, alcohol and sweets
Day 8 completed. A good day, but with some urges now in the evening. Reading the forum for inspiration. Focus!
Day 27/90 Urges were strong last night but so far I’m in complete control. 1 more day to surpass my previous streak
Day 5/90 Gonna get to bed earlier tonight so I can wake up earlier. Been staying up late wasting time. Speaking of time, I commit to sitting down tomorrow for 30 minutes without interruptions to review and update my goals. I caved in and downloaded a dating app called Bumble. While I told myself I’m only going to swipe 5-7 potential matches, I end up getting sucked into the app, spending hours reading profiles, looking at pictures, and swiping. Feels like another epic time trap. In the 2-3 days I’ve had the app, 3-4 people liked me, but their profiles blurry, unless I presume we both matched each other. Either way, in theory I like the idea, in reality it just appears to be a really poor time investment with little to no return. The phone can be an amazing tool but also one of, if not the most, dangerous distractions and time thief.... IF we allow it to be. The keyword here is IF. I think in addition to spending some time working on and reviewing goals, I’ll also work on making a schedule. There’s so much to discuss on this topic, but I don’t think this is the right thread for that... I still have daily momentary urges to go on the video chat site, and have to stick to my commitment. I simply tell myself NO and convince myself it’s not worth it. Hope everyone made wholesome and healthy choices today. Choose life, freedom, integrity, long term joy, and greater overall fulfillment over fleeting selfish pleasures that only eat away at your soul. Your friend, Lamboskovich
