day 2 and i did a mistake ;; a movie came in my mind few minutes ago and i really loved the actor of that movie so i decided to check him out with all his movies but this was a trap as i fell in that loop and started watching some other trailers of movies .. i did a mistake and searched for diff actresses with their bold roles and this was my mistake ;; i found my mistake and controlled myself from being trapped and shutted all that down ;; now from this point i will not search any of the movies, music videos , actors , actresses , singer nothing that will lead me to relapse ,,
Day 43/90 Today I woke up extremely early at around 4AM and I experienced something unusual. I could feel such a positive energy within me and was full of motivation. I usually wake up at around 6AM. This was one of the best experiences and waking up early is really beneficial
0/90 I am starting this challenge one more time. I remember trying last year and almost completely. Then I left... my mistake. It's best to stay and try and try... I'm here now and I'm making a commitment to not leave until I accomplish it.
day 2 and i think that i started being very lenient after last relapse and this is the sign of fall in my performance as i not not taking it serious ;; i broke the promises which i had done to myself and searched for something erotic today so that i can get a hit of dopamine and to force my mind to watch something that will lead to relapse ;; i know the exact cycle of these things which happened to me today and still i am not able to stop these things ;; last streak was a proper hardmode for 10 days but this 2 days till now is not .. i want to live that addiction free life and i am taking a decision that would help me in my future journey ;; next time whenever i will open youtube or think to search anything on web , i will write down reason before doing that , if my reason will not be proper then i will not go to youtube or will not search for anything ;; i hope that this decision will help me as i will end my flow of searching erotic things which could lead to relapse ;; so taking this decision and will give my 100% to abide this decision also you guys can help me in this and give your suggestions about how can i make this decision more efficient and also to follow my own rule every single time with no regret ..
Day 10/30 Habit 1 X Habit 2 ✔ Day 11/30 Habit 1 X Habit 2 ✔ Here are some main experiences of this week 》Spend 4 days doing nothing but thinking in these days I felt very unsatisfied at the end of the day which cause stress. And the intensity increases with each next day. 》MY main distraction in these days was starmaker singing app. 》I've joined Online guitar classes. Which I really passionate about. 》There were no urges even I talked to my friend twice and went at my cousin's house. The reason may be I am too involved with my goals.
Patience is the key. Don't give up even if you fail this time. I've been trying for 6 years and my determation just keeps going up every time I fail. That's the right mindset I think so eventually you and I will get there. 90 days onward my friend.
Day 12/90 Day 569 at attempting this challenge Day 195 weigh training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, alcohol and sweets
50 days completed. I just want to challenge myself and stop running away from my fears. I happen to be single for 50 days today, I live alone so I have a plenty of time in my hand considering I have been working from home.
