[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 49/90
I will not stop until and unless I get what I want.

 

I have to be honest with you guys. I relapsed... anyway I've been having really bad chaser effect and can't get to normal long streak... don't know how to get up again and carry on.. Tbh I'm really tired of my ups and downs It's like that all the time. I read 2nd book about this addiction.. I'm having a therapy every 2 week and yet I just can't get up. I can't control myself. The more I think of it the more i guess it's about lonelines. 5 years I've been single I live on my own and I'm onl 30. I'll try again but this time I'll be here everyday reporting my days as I remember It was reallt good for me during my long streaks.
Stay strong guys!!

 

Day 16 completed. These days are not easy. Taking it one day at a time.

 

Day 6/90

It's the weekend. I hate weekends when it comes to staying clean. Too much time. But I'm already out doing some healthy stuff.
Good luck fellas.

 

Day 10!!! Let’s go let’s go let’s go!!

 

Can I partecipate? Do I have to reset the counter to partecipante?

 

Day 1

 

Don't be too hard on yourself... self forgiveness is important. A couple of times in my life I ve made this spontaneous ritual of hugging myself thinking of everything I did that was against me... and forgave me. I even cried the first time I did it. Makes you whole again.

Stay strong, it's hard but worth it

 

Count me in, day 0. Nofap war incoming

 

Day -20

 

Well.. first relapse. It s a 30 years old habit in a 40 years old man.
In my context 3 days of abstinence was A LOT... And I ll work in making my streaks longer each time.

My mistake today was not "cleaning" my house. And trying to do in AFTER starting my abstinence streak.
I was surprised by how just a peek into my old old porn mags started me up.

Relapse is not bad if you learn from each mistake, I guess its part of the process.

Its not starting over, its just falling a couple of steps down. But it hurts a bit to reset that counter.

See u around

 

Day 13/90

 

Day 2/90

 

Day 0/90

 

Day 33/90. I've never made it this far. I've not peaked and I've not Md the whole time. Hadn't had an O either for 30 days before I visited my girlfriend for the first time since I started. It may be another 30 until the next time that happens again in these covid times. I'm very pleased with where I am.

 

Cool man. Congratulations. Keep rising. I wish that I can too reach. Lol.

 

so it's day 1 and it will be completed in 1 hour ,, actually uninstalled spotify today as it giving me craving to watch music videos ,, and you'll know that how much instigating those music videos are ,, also stopped watching pubg mobile live stream excessively and will watch it sometime only as a reward for my achievements ;; also made a new routine of sleeping 12 to 4 am in night and 3 to 5/6 pm in noon ;; and i am following this from past 4 days ;; also i am afraid of youtube as i slips there and fell in those trap ;; i also minimised my web / youtube activities and decided to journal every youtube / web search ,,, i have a doubt gthat it will be good or not as i relapsed on youtube 1 day ago instead of journaling as when urges came i forgot about journal ;; how how can i make my journal effective ,,

 

Day 18/90
Day 575 at attempting this challenge
Day 198 weigh training (M, W, F)
Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, alcohol and sweets

 

Day 56 of 90 completed.

 

32 days completed 32/90