Relapsed today after 43 days streak. Although I did not indulge in any P. Reason for relapse. 1. Last few days have been very lazy days. 2. Was scrolling through Instagram and other feeds which acted as trigger. 3. Stopped exercising. Never mind, we always have the choice of changing our lives from this moment.
TITLE - CAYOTESLAYER Day 8/90 Last streak - 26 Total PMO - 83 Total P - 25 Total hours remaining - 124 Days remaining - 6 Challenges completed - 2 3 DAYS -✓ 7 DAYS -✓ 14 DAYS - 21 DAYS - 30 DAYS - 45 DAYS - 60 DAYS - 90 DAYS - 365 DAYS - "It will take more than head games to stop me. You may have invaded my mind and my body... but there's one thing a Saiyan always keeps: his pride!" - VEGETA. Rules- 1. Watching porn even for a second count as a relapse. 2. If you relapsed or binged you will reset your counter and start from 3 day challenge. 3. You have to meditate twice a day but one in afternoon and one before sleeping. 4. Removing the pornblocker or trying to do it count as a relapse. I don't feel like watching porn at all. It's good no urges no porn.
Today I will get to day 90! I should be proud of myself. But now I'm getting more and more scared about this since I managed to get that far in the past and eventually my urges got stronger and stronger and afterwards, I relapsed. I'm scared not to fail again! For me, relapses are happening in November, that's how things worked for me in the past years. I don't want to repeat those mistakes, but some patterns are hard to change...
I have to reset, friends. I was doing great but had a few drinks tonight to relax after a very stressful week, and that led to a very stupid relapse. I made it 28 days for this challenge, which actually was 58 straight days since I came in right after the 30-day. Well anyway here I am, humbled again, starting over. Day 0.
Day 63. Continued to have strong urges today. Managed to watch some motivational videos to get back to the right mindset. I will need to stay strong and disciplined to have any chance of completing the rest of this challenge.
Day 8 No M Day 284 No P Yess ) Another day ) There is some really nice truths in this video - if you have not dealt with your past, you will constantly carry it around with you as a baggage instead of as wisdom. You have to deal with the reasons that got you into this mess and then it will be much easier to move on and deal with it!
