Day 0. Relapsed. The whole covid situation and the theories took a toll on me. Soon, I won't be able to go outside without a mask on my face anymore. And I have difficulty with breathing through my nose most of the time and I wear glasses. Quitting my addiction with this limited freedom and pressure is almost impossible if not, impossible. I have no one to talk to, my friends don't give a shit about me. (and when I say no one to talk to, I mean in critical moments, where I would need a direct response) The family members I live with are toxic and unsupportive. When this virus situation gets worse, most of my family will actually be dangerous for me, because they impose their reality over mine. (they watch the freakin news everyday, they're completely brainwashed) The home I live in is my grandfathers and he doesn't hesitate to exercise authority over me or my other family members that I live with. The rest of my family is selfish and elitistic. They pretend they don't see me when walking past me on the street. They're such cowards... "They pretend they don't see a problem, because the problem is too uncomfortable to deal with." My psicologist basically just told me to expand my friend circle. The reality is, that no matter how much I work on my friend circle, everyone is nice, but then they also say they are very busy, and NEVER talk to me again. And honestly this whole social media bullshit is ridiculous, some people send me friend requests, just to be friends with me on facebook, but don't give a rats ass on sending a message. Ever. What the hell is the point? What heals most is human connection, socializing, and exactly that is being taken away. What could I do? I will think about that tomorrow. I'll try to wake up early and meditate.
Day 19/90 Day 631 attempting this challenge Global Counter 95% (since joining) Day 222 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, alcoholand sweets
Day 1 Thanks guys! It means something when people respond! That does not happen too often I did the 90 days once this year, but It was not the cleanest streak - there was some edging from time to time, but my resets never involve porn - I believe I beat that + I have cured my ED completely, which was my initial goal. Had a girlfriend for a couple of months this year + seen my ex a few times as well. Sex was great like I had not had it years! I am trying to do another 90 days streak to solidify my progress, keep discipline and overall physical and mental health What are your reasons to be on the challenge? It helps to open up sometimes
Day 20/90 A 3-part documentary series highlighting how porn affects individuals, relationships, and society made by Fight The New Drug, must watch: https://brainheartworld.org/checkout/
TITLE - MAGGOT Day 1/90 Longest streak - 28 Last streak - 11 Total PMO - 129 Total P - 30 Total hours remaining - 686 Days remaining - 29 Challenges completed - 0 3 DAYS - 7 DAYS - 14 DAYS - 21 DAYS - 30 DAYS - 45 DAYS - 60 DAYS - 90 DAYS - 365 DAYS - "It will take more than head games to stop me. You may have invaded my mind and my body... but there's one thing a Saiyan always keeps: his pride!" - VEGETA. Rules- 1. Watching porn even for a second count as a relapse and you have to -5 days from your streak if you're streak is less than 5 then start from 0. 2. Doing PMO or MO or PM once will count as a binge and you have to reset your counter to 0. 3. You have to meditate twice a day but one in afternoon and one before sleeping. 4. Removing the pornblocker or trying to do it count as a relapse and then you will -2 days from your streak or 0. 5. You are not allowed to scratch your intimate parts and if you did then -1 day from your streak or 0. Finally I am day 1 now.
