Day 6. I have to keep in perspective that even though I've failed in several challenges, overall I have cut way back on PMO over the last couple years. I have not yet reached my goals of a more long-term control of this addiction, but I have indeed made significant progress (on average). I think maybe it's important that sometimes we look at the big picture of our recovery, so we don't get too discouraged by setbacks along the way. In any case, I'm glad for the nofap community and I thank you all for supporting me through many ups and downs. Ok, onward, to another PMO-free day.
My withdrawal symptoms for porn has started. I always get orgasm by just remembering all the porn scene I watched .so I will just do 90 day pm challenge only .
I feel I'm really on the brink of relapsing. For the last few days, I keep watching things on Youtube that I shouldn't watch, sometimes no nudity sometimes yes, always for the purpose of numbing my mind. I didn't M to it, so technically I'm not counting it as a relapse, but I'm very aware that if I continue like this, a full relapse is basically inevitable. I'm gonna have to make this a challenge and prove to myself that I am capable of getting back on the right path without ever resorting to M after a foolish run like this. Wish me strength.
I think you should stop using YT completely in moments like these. You don’t need to see some worthless video to numb your feelings! Just sit back, relax, and acknowledge those feelings. Think about whatever that may be bothering you. Redirect your thoughts to something else. Think about the consequences of a relapse: it will just give you more emptiness and you’ll just feel bad about yourself. Go outside, give yourself a treat. Do something else, like listen to feel good songs or watch animated movies! You can do this man, I know you can. Think about all of us rooting for you here, think about your own goals of becoming a better person.
Day 21/90 Day 633 attempting this challenge Global Counter 95% (since joining) Day 222 weight training (M, W, F) Lifestyle: reduced caffeine, alcoholand sweets
