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Discussion in 'Events & Challenges' started by 2525, Oct 27, 2017.
1 day. That's one step in the right direction, away from PMO.
Day 3 and starting to notice when I initiate convo with others and when they initiate with me. I may be less alone than I thought.
Came here to quit porn. Big improvements this time around. 79/90 no porn done. I've actually noted 4 instances where I should technically have lost the challenge because I skimmed porn or something similar either for a few seconds or a few minutes. But I haven't M or O to porn. I still MO to my thoughts. I can feel my cravings for porn decreasing dramatically and starting to get some morning wood again. I've had bad PIED but can feel that slipping away too. Started to date more women and get my confidence back. Covid is making this challenge wayyyy harder though but feeling good about the progress
I again struck in pmo addition I want to die no hopes to live horrible feeling
Early Day 7
Day 0! I made a post in the 'new to nofap' forum... let's do this!
I already feel horny and am so ready to overcome this. Time for my cold shower.
Day 4/90. A decent day today, but I'm looking forward to the doctor's appointment tomorrow to take care of my anxiety. It's crazy how much it can affect your life. I've taken off a couple of days from work because it's affecting that much. Looking forward to having a "normal" life again, especially one without PMO.
I failed today..... Starting tomorrow again.....
The problem that I'm trying to fight right now is that I don't have that patience, whenever im in the process like in day 31, i will lose the vision of why i started, your brain automatically thinks about masturbating, it automatically thinks that this is useless, it's like your gonna have that thought inside your head(why am i doing this i could just have a good time and just have an average life) and it's gonna be a tough fight inside your head, it is always about the mentality, the mindset, i tried to find stuff that will really distract me from this masturbation, but whenever i do those stuff I'm like don't have the energy for it to do it, and because of that it leads me to boredom, and leads me to watching porn or stuff that will make me horny, and leads me to masturbating, and leads me to ejaculating... It's really hard... Now i know what it feels like to have an addiction, it's like you can't live without it, but the truth is it destroys your life, it's like a poison inside you, it continues to kill your life......
Day 8. Today was rough. Very intense urges. During meditation, I felt so angry and frustrated. All I could think about was breaking something or punching the wall. I had to stop before I brought myself to tears. Now I'm surfing reddit and just trying to feel better. One of the worst days I've had in a long time. Hopefully tomorrow is better.
This is a good video that can give you a good insight on other addictions and ultimately remind you that to cure your addiction, you need to find the reasons that led you to it in the first place and face them
Have a great day!
Hi all, I'm really appreciative to have this site and this resource. I have relapsed, 3 times in the last 3 days. I am definitely done with it now.
I know the ultimate cause of my issues (Complex PTSD), and I know exactly who has inflicted it on me. She has abused me emotionally by only caring about herself.
Even when I confront her, she will never own up. But I can't let that stop me, she is going to hear what I have to say, even if she don't listen.
If she tries to turn it back on me (as she will) or start crocodile tears (as she will). I will be non-reactionary, matter of fact, unemotional, and will tell her what she has done.
It's time to take my power back for myself and stop giving it to other people who don't deserve to have it.
In other words it's time for me to grow the $%&# up. And fast, I've lost too much time to this disease and to my neuroses - all the crap that is holding me back from becoming the best version of myself.
Day 22 done
Thanks for posting this. We can face a lot of pain and shame in dealing with this addiction and this is a good reminder to be compassionate with ourselves along the way.
I'm in. Again.
I once reached 28 Days. After that it got worser and worser. Then, for about a half year I wasn't active at nf.
Now I am back with new motivation and a new focus.
Day 4/90. My thoughts have definitely been more sexual lately. I got to wrap them up and hand them to God.
Day 52 complete.
Still taking it one day at a time. Trying to maintain awareness of where I am emotionally. I had no idea when I started this journey how important this is.