Hi all, I'm really appreciative to have this site and this resource. I have relapsed, 3 times in the last 3 days. I am definitely done with it now. I know the ultimate cause of my issues (Complex PTSD), and I know exactly who has inflicted it on me. She has abused me emotionally by only caring about herself. Even when I confront her, she will never own up. But I can't let that stop me, she is going to hear what I have to say, even if she don't listen. If she tries to turn it back on me (as she will) or start crocodile tears (as she will). I will be non-reactionary, matter of fact, unemotional, and will tell her what she has done. It's time to take my power back for myself and stop giving it to other people who don't deserve to have it. In other words it's time for me to grow the $%&# up. And fast, I've lost too much time to this disease and to my neuroses - all the crap that is holding me back from becoming the best version of myself.