Day 18. Honestly yesterday was harder than I wanted it to be. I never seriously considered cheating but the urges were STRONG. Last night I was so horny I woke up a couple of times with a pesky boner and had to get up to pee to get it to go away. But the gym absolutely helps and I'm definitely going again today. My current mindset is that I'm not giving in for anything in the world, so bring it on!
That's awesome. You can only get stronger from this mindset, not weaker! I have morning wood every night now. Didn't happen before. But I don't care. I only care about getting stronger physically and mentally, and also enjoying other things in life because life is so much more than just S or MO. It's about having hobbies, passions, and to be creative etc.
Minor slip up this morning on instagram and touched myself a bit. The reason I will not reset is that in the past I always use the reset as a Free day pass to do stupid things... I will just continue my streak and If I do this again I will reset. Day 17
I had the same at day 17 or something like that. It was realy hard, I already started to edge but then I give it up to edge. The next 2 days was again hard but I was aware as on day 1 and I kept going again. Day 24 - half of my record.
Day 19. Almost to three weeks! I know that relapses can happen when you're least suspecting it, but honestly the idea of relapsing right now just seems so crazy. Like, this is awesome. Why on earth would I give up this feeling to return to the haze and guilt of PMO?! Am I horny as hell? yup. Am I fighting urges? yup. But will I give in and ruin the amazing energy and joy I feel making this kind of progress toward a better life? hell no! Stay strong guys! Hit the gym!
Day 72 Urges made a visit again. And it's only because of a wet dream (nocturnal emisson) few days ago. When this happens the prostate expands and there's more bloodflow down there. This activates the nerves in/around the prostate which makes it not only easier to get it up, but urges will be back for 5-10 days which is annoying and that's why many men have a relapse after a wet dream. You must do kegel exercise to stop this. You can also do the exercise where you stand up with your feet close to each other and bend forward to touch the floor with your hands (or try to touch if you can't reach the floor) while your legs are straight. This stretches the backside of your thighs/legs and helps prevent wet dreams. Do this before bedtime about 30 times. I haven't really done it yet because I've done other exercises that made me tired but I'll go for it. These wet dreams should be less than 3 per month. My goal is complete semen retention where my body absorbes all of the excess semen. I have lower back pain now again and that's only because of this sexual energy thing. Either the energy is drained from the kidneys or the energy is stuck in the kidneys, that's very common, I think it's the latter. I've been sitting down too much, not proud of it but I haven't been completely lazy either. I've been lifting moving things around in the garage. The most annoying thing with all of this is that sexual fantasies start to pop up in my head. It's very good in a way though, it's not P-images but normal women and quite innocent mental images but it's not good because whether you ejaculate or not the sexual energy is wasted/drained when having fantasies. So I need to distract myself from these thoughts completely. Save that energy for a potential girlfriend in the future and she will be blown away. The best feeling during a long streak is where you have lots of energy but have no fantasies at all, no sexdrive at all, but you have sexual function (no ED), and your heart is open and activated. You're then what I would call free. I've been there but not for a very long time. That's the ultimate feeling of all feelings. Better than any urges or O's in the world. Urges can feel like walking around with a heavy ball and chain attached to your ancle. When you know how it feels like to be free from the urges, and have this open heart energy you've entered a whole new reality. When you've been there you don't want to go back. Ever. I promise you. Find out yourself.
Your avatar image is on a whole different level. First I thought it was your dog then, oh wait, it's his hand!
