[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

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Day 0, again. I will not stop. New month, new challenge. I will try my hardest to stay clean. I relapsed yesterday (after midnight) because of insomnia (had a test, had to sleep). Didn't use P though.
I know that it's not healthy to rely on (P)MO to sleep, and I don't want to make excuses, but this was the easiest and fastest way. Now my exams are basically over until next month so I don't have any excuses. My stress levels have been really high lately and I started consuming more P. I'm not a believer and I don't buy arbitrary morals or stuff but I felt physically dirty each time, and drained of my energy.
Beforehand I M'ed too often (like once a day) but without P. Starting to develop better habits though. I will get back into the habit of posting in other forums as well (3 days, 7 days, 14 days etc.) in order to get "quick wins", which I believe are important - discipline doesn't build itself in the course of a week and motivation can help. Unless it bothers too many people of course lol.
Stay strong.
 
Day 24!

Sorry I didn't post the past few days, I was at a cabin in the woods with some friends. The trip was really great. There was wifi but no cell service and I left my laptop in my backpack the entire time. We just cooked and hung out and drank (too much haha) and spent time together. It was easy to stay good.

Now I'm back at my desk, a little sad, a little hung over, and the idea of PMO sounds soooo nice right now. I won't give in to temptation, I know I won't, but if I'm being honest this is a moment when I can feel that little voice tugging on my resolve saying, "why not? It's just once, it would help you feel good about being home and then you can get your work done afterwards, it won't even really matter. Besides, all your friends are doing it, I'm sure they haven't thought twice, just relax and enjoy."

But I won't give in!! Stay strong guys.
 
RaXaZ said:
Hey man you relapse quite often, what makes you participate in this challenge for? What are your cues? How can I help you
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Thank you for your support, my friend. Last year I was able to achieve a long streak with the help of this forum and the friends who attended. Given my past record, I hope this year I will be able to achieve success once again with the help of this friendly atmosphere.
Unfortunately, I have not yet been willing to avoid some of my hobbies to achieve this success, and this has been the cause of many of my relapses.
 
locked boy nyc said:
Day 24!

Sorry I didn't post the past few days, I was at a cabin in the woods with some friends. The trip was really great. There was wifi but no cell service and I left my laptop in my backpack the entire time. We just cooked and hung out and drank (too much haha) and spent time together. It was easy to stay good.

Now I'm back at my desk, a little sad, a little hung over, and the idea of PMO sounds soooo nice right now. I won't give in to temptation, I know I won't, but if I'm being honest this is a moment when I can feel that little voice tugging on my resolve saying, "why not? It's just once, it would help you feel good about being home and then you can get your work done afterwards, it won't even really matter. Besides, all your friends are doing it, I'm sure they haven't thought twice, just relax and enjoy."

But I won't give in!! Stay strong guys.
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There’s something about being tired and even a little hungover. I feel like that’s my biggest trigger.

Day 67.
 
Day 25.

I got shit sleep last night because my partner came home drunk in the middle of the night. Lucky me. And then I had to get up early to get some work done. I'm really not feeling like doing the gym but I'm still going to go. I have a theory about the gym. If you're not in the mood to go, just give yourself permission to have the easiest workout ever. Even if you just show up and get in 20 minutes on the stair stepper or something dumb, at least you went. You worked toward building the habit. And once you're there, if you're up for it, you can push yourself harder. But never choose to stay home because you don't have a "real workout" in you. Still go, just make it easy. That's what I'll do today.

Tbh today I mostly don't feel urges, I just feel kinda low. I hope I'm not hitting a flatline yet or something... anyway. Not gonna fap, that's for SURE!
 
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