[90-CHALLENGE] THE NINETY DAYS CHALLENGE !

Day 84

All the way to around day 55 everything went so fast but now things are really slow. 10 Days feels like forever.
Don't be frightened by me saying that. It's just my personal experience. Anyway.. It's less than a week for me to reach 90 days!!
It has been really tough in many ways to do this but at the same time very easy. It goes up and down in waves. I've done it to heal myself and to change my life. I'm far away from done. I feel like for me, personally, 90 days weren't enough and there needs to be more than just NF. I also need to do other things and change other habits.

I have much better self control now and are much more stable. Yet, sometimes I'm more emotional. Feelings have started to come to the surface that I have to deal with.

I come back to this forum everyday because I have literally no one to talk to about this so this is like a freezone to be in.

 

Day 0.

 

Day 67 beginning to see why watching porn is destructive even if you don't Fap. However I need to do baby steps and not faping at all for any amount of days let alone 90, was a huge deal for me. I'm now going to stop porn and drinking alcohol for the next 23 days and see where it takes me.

 

Day 46

 

Day 32.

It's interesting, I feel like in the first two weeks every day I had to exert a huge amount of effort toward avoiding triggers and urges. Now, it's not like I'm not horny, and there are certainly moments when MO would feel amazing (in the moment, not in the long run). But it feels like my mind is more able to recognize those urges and just be indifferent toward them, observe that they're there but let them pass. The idea of actually unzipping my pants and starting to MO just seems crazy to me. I need to be careful not to get cocky (no pun intended) but it feels like this is getting easier.

 

Day 5/90
Feeling quite restless today, but I have enough sht to do today. So pmo? No, thanks!
Keep it up y'all!!

 

Day 5.

 

Day 5

 

Day 63 no pmo hope everyone is doing well

 

Day 9/90 over. Just woke up and I don't really feel like exercising but let's not care too much about feelings.

 

Day 0

 

Day 1

 

Day 85

Wet dream. Always about 12 days apart. This time it was 13 days. Kind of sucks but I didn't want it to happen.

Update: Some old sexual mental images popped up again and because if this wet deam some pretty strong urges came back to the surface. Erections are too easy to get but I don't want this. I feel this sexual frustration and I'm irritated over multiple things in my life. Some stupid thoughts comes up like that I should give up this streak. So I logged in here to write this. I'M NOT GIVING THIS UP NOW. MY LIFE SUCKS RIGHT NOW BUT MY DETERMINATION AND SPIRIT ROCKS!

 

Day 68. I don't know if it's the frustration but I seem to feel tired and irritable the last few days.

 

Day 1

 

Day 9.
After a struggle my beautifuul cat.. little angle have passed away.


My soul is hurt. I hope I can see you in another world

 

Oh no.. I'm sorry to hear that man. He/she was really beautiful. I love cats.

 

It's pretty sad, I'm sorry for your loss. It still lives in your heart and mind ! Stay strong.

 

She.
Thank you buddy..Its hard

I have to. But its hard now
Thank you.

 

Day 3 complete